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Re: On the way... Again 30 Oct 2024 01:52 #423965

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Bh the rest of yom tov went well, got more sleep and was able to regain equilibrium. Now getting back to the zman and hopeful. 
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Re: On the way... Again 20 Nov 2024 21:08 #425513

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The beginning of the zman was a slow start, was very tarud and took a lot of time off of seder as well as lacked a bunch of sleep, I definitely felt the effects and had a few minor slips, letting my eyes wander a bit too much. But B"H things are starting to calm down and should be able to get back on the straight and narrow road.
I had a very nice win today, I had bought a few non jewish novels which I was very excited about, and read through one and had started the second (sequel). Though they were very enjoyable to read they also contained a fair amount of inappropriate parts. I didn't want to stop reading them becaus ethey filled the void of entertainment which I needed to relax. But a few days ago while reading I felt myself get aroused and noticed a battle of lust for the next couple days following that. 
I thought to myself, I will just finish the book and then be done and stop reading them. But today I realized that this could make things harder since I would essentially be taking the easy way out and also I wouldn't have had the moment of saying "no" which helps move to the next stage of thinking and feeling "I don't need this". So even though it is very hard for me to stop in the middle of quite a thrilling epic story, I put the book away. Then I realized this is the soton in the closet and will probably just be a nisayon in the future. So I threw it in the garbage. Then I got myself some ice cream and a beer (starting to stop my no drinking phase). The End. Battle won. The war continues.
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Re: On the way... Again 20 Nov 2024 21:14 #425514

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I want to be part of a chevrah of guys who have "recovered" (because you can never fully recover, according to me anyway ) who keep in touch and are available for support when needed. B"H I am already in touch with a few guys from GYE and would love to get in touch with a few more.
Besides for this I also want to create a support group within my yeshiva, still trying to clarify the tzurah, but basically guys who have been through the struggle and recovered just being aware of each other and becoming friends and sharing strength and strategies so that in time of need there is someone to reach out to who is there and relatable. The biggest issue right now is letting eople know about it short of putting up posters on the bulletin board (which I don't think the hanhalah would approve of). So far I'm just letting the mashgichim be aware of it and hopefully they will tell the guys for whom it's nogeiah. Any thoughts please comment or PM. Thanks for reading and may hashem help us all.
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Re: On the way... Again 20 Nov 2024 21:18 #425517

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Obviously, the solution is join a vaad

Please pm me about leading one. It's an amazing opportunity to give back, and also a great framework for a support group. I think you'd do an awesome job. 

Re: On the way... Again 20 Nov 2024 21:23 #425518

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wow that was a quick response
Whats this vaad thing? Can you PM me first, my tablet has a bit of an attitude and I can't start a pm or open links (like the one in your signature about the vaad program)
Thanks!
"Greatness is forged in battle" - Reb Yerucham Levovitz
My Journey - https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/399197-On-the-way-Again
Feel Free to Reach out to me through email at hopefulposek613@gmail.com
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