I actually applied it in my head to everything... 

Ok so my trip was extended 3 nights which was really not expected nor prepared for. Ready to watch my pg13 DVD now but I already incinerated it. Ready to get it again but something telling me to post here first. I really don't know what the big issue is. The whole GYE thing is for p&m and this isn't that. I've already grown more this year than the past 10 tears at least. One stupid action flick isn't throwing all that away. Argh 

It's not about p&m, it's about living in God's world on his terms. I have found that movies, for me, are an escape from that reality even if they are totally mutar which is hard to find. 

You've come a long way and your growth and effort are truly inspiring to me. The movie may lead to nothing, but why risk it? There are so many other great things to do!

Hatzlacha Rabba and keep trucking, your doing swell!

LifneiHashem wrote on 01 May 2017 23:03:

I relate. I have an inner critic also that shows me all my flaws and it seems like everything I do is up for judgement. But remember "Progress not perfection." All forms of obsession are unhealthy for me.

Most serious slip since I started. Dangerous google searches. Don't know where it came from. 
Possibly been getting too comfortable & too uninspired. 
Already the guilt & shame killing me. How did this happen? It's like I'm back to the same person from all those months ago. Where did my progress go? 

Best advice I have got from some people. Do not focus on guilt and shame. Just keep trucking. I've gone so far as to stop asking Hashem to forgive me for these sins. I still ask for forgiveness but in a general way. I mainly ask that I should be zoche to feel his presence in my life. IMHO, don't look back. Slips happen. Just get back on the band wagon.
Hatzlacha Rabba!

 It's kind of depressing how people start posting on the forum and then fizzle out after a few posts. What happens to them? I don't know how the mods deal with it. 

i agree, though it is possible that alot of them go join a program so they dont feel the need to connect.

LifneiHashem wrote on 06 Jun 2017 17:55:

Were you talking about me?
My post is the last one before this one.
I am currently going through some things and trying something else. I'll be back in a short while.

lionking wrote on 06 Jun 2017 20:40:

Wasn't thinking of anyone in particular, just noticing a general trend. 
BTW I really should thank you (more than just a thank you button.) your reply helped me so much when I was feeling so low. I must have spent a day just repeating your mantra "slips happen, move on". I feel indebted to you for helping me get through a rocky time. Thank you and hatzlacha in whatever your trying!

LifneiHashem wrote on 06 Jun 2017 17:55:

It is depressing a bit. At least it used to be much more for me. What helps me is realizing that God runs the world and He runs it very well. He is taking care of them even if they're not on the forums. They're safe in His hands and He will continue to run the world in His beauty and grace. It's a shame, but they're ok.

Sorry guys.

i don't really post cause part of my issue is thinking I don't have what to add.

maybe there are many like me.
but I gain tremendously from the consistent posters.
so thank you!!

elul wrote on 07 Jun 2017 01:22:

Guys like you have gotta stop thinking so much 

We need all hands on deck and all pedals on the metal 

So apparently slipping on Sunday has become a trend.
It turns out it is not healthy to look at even non pornographic photos of your favorite pornographic actor. 
Yes a slip is a slip and I need to move on. I know guilt is not healthy and just keep going. On the other hand, even though I've come so far these slips make me feel like i haven't accomplished anything. It's been almost a year, including several months of feeling so light and free, almost ( but never quite) released from the bonds of porn & holywood too. But these recent slips have pulled me down, way down. The momentum & inspiration are gone. Even the will is gone. As I've told many others, success at GYE actually requires guarding your eyes.
At times (like now) it's hard to even remember why I'm doindoing this. It's interesting, I firmly know I began this not because of the religious aspect that it's a sin, but rather because I felt I was losing control of my life. But at this point I think the strongest thing holding me back is that it's a sin. I can't seem to muster any other motivation. I miss it so much. Wow I can't believe this is me. What happened to me? I thought I was a new person but I'm not. That makes me increadibly sad. Which again leads me to wonder what's the value of going on and not just completing the regression. 

Wow yesterday sucked. Onward!