i'm sorry as well. You can get in touch with one of us if you feel it too.


helping hand: you can lapse once as long as its not today

I had a fall today. .
 I feel so worthless. I need to find a job so I’m not at home all morning by myself. So far a have a potential job but I need to finish a sample job for them first and it’s a little confusing for me so I push it off and procrastinate and push it off.... you get the point. And it’s do unhealthy for me to be alone. I have no idea what to do. Also I have not been doing my step work properly. I have not been doing my reading properly. It will also help if I try to go to more meetings per week. I feel like I can't get my act together. Also like I said it's hard to tell my wife every time i mess up. I feel like she deserves to heal after all the harm iv'e done to her. That is what she feels she needs but it's hard for me. TFLMS.

Sorry to hear that. Seems like you learned something new about yourself though. Can you work in a public area (like a library). That way you have people around you and aren't alone? 

ITs good to keep a list of what works for you, so you don't get stuck in a loop. Its one thing to go in a loop and fall due to the same thing, its another to patch each thing as you fall so that you don't fall by it in the future. 

just my 2 cents.

What does your couple therapist say?

Imho if anything she should demand to know when you take and when you miss steps in recovery, not if you slipped. 

I'm not talking from personal experience, but she gains nothing hearing each time you fall, and it's not a deterrent either (for most of us)

I actually agree. and we don't officially have a couples therapist yet. But my therapist told her that it wont help her if I tell her but rather to make sure i am doing recovery properly. But yet here we are.