Shalom Chaverim...
   I'm really mad at myself right now. I've been around for a long time (I think is 2 years by now) and my longest steak has been just 70 days a long time ago.. have I improved myself along the way? yes, of course! have I keep on falling over and over? yes,  I just failed some minutes ago...
 The thing is, I don't wanna blame anyone (including myself) anymore, or look for lame excuses to why I keep on doing this stupid thing that has caused me so much pain. I don't want to be in this state of porn-suspended animation anymore. I want my life back! and I'll work on it even if is the last thing I do.
  So, I'm starting all over again, but doing what I never did before, that is, adding discipline and a detailed plan, not just sitting around facebooking and youtubing the whole day and wait for changes to happen overnight (that's what I've been doing)....
 I'm gonna be writing here my progress. I'll try to do it every day so feel free to ask, suggest or write anything you want. I also hope this could help those who are also struggling or starting all over again.
  1.- Day 0...I'm going out to do something to release the angry I feel

Aaron!

Great to have you on!
You didn't finish your sentence...

Whats your end plan for today?
Are you interested in hearing what else is on the gye Trucking menu?

Hi Markz...I went for a spontaneous buzz cut...I feel better after doing that. I'm trying to plan my activities for the days to come...at least one week ahead. The thing is that I have a big, huge lack of discipline...I could spend hours laying on the couch watching rubbish on Youtube, So my starting point is that, to define a daily routine and commit  to work it out entirely...
 I'd be really interested on hearing that!

 Behatzlacha!

Is that like a crew cut?

Yesod gave it you?

Welcome back.

It should be B'hatzlachah.

Markz: No...It's more like completely bald, I just grabbed a hair clipper and cut it all off :D

Cordnoy: Thank you mate

I prefer if the head chef (cordnoy) shows you the menu.
He likes to often just stay in the kitchen and poke his head to say "Welcome, Coffee? Tea?"

markz wrote:

I didn't know we serve coffee where can I find that 

Aryeh821 wrote on 03 May 2016 02:34:

Cordnoy's avatar Message
"No tea? Try coffee instead!"

aaron73 wrote on 02 May 2016 21:52:

Welcome! Hey, whats the anger for?

Hi Aaron
Some thing that really helps me a lot is having a written
schedule  (in excel its wasy) of every hour of every day so that you wont get sidetracked or have nothing to do.
Every time your about to aimlessly surf the web, look at your schedule instead and see waht you need to do.

If you dont have a job,I really suggest you make your #1  priority to get a job.its extremely important.

Me acavas de aceptar como tu partner y te escribi un email, mira a ver cuando tengas chance respondemelo.  gye770@gmail.com

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Hi guys, thanks everyone for writing here
 
 Markz: I've been reading some of what you have there...really great to have important things to read in one place...thanks for that! (I'll keep being around reading more if you don't mind)

realsimcha: That's a really good question. I guess is just because I hate this thing, I don't want to keep doing it, also  I've been experiencing some really positive changes lately, but I went back to use the same rubbish (pornography and masturbation) without even actually wanting to.

gye1962: Hi mate! I just read your email ... as soon as I have some time, I'll write you back.

TOday is day 2 in my streak: Day 1 went kind of well, just lots of remorse around, but today I'm putting that away and getting up again. I'm defining my daily schedule so I don't have free time around, which is dangerous for most of us addicts. Today I'm starting. First I got up earlier than I used to, and went out for some physical activity ( a work out) I suffer a lot from anxiety but realized a little time ago that it came from keeping things inside of my head...so any way to put my stuff out, helps me being more calm ( put them out in a good and helpful for me and others, safe, non sexual way)...
 So far so good. I'm trying to live and improve one hour at the time. Hope to keep reading your questions and suggestions guys

Behatzlacha!

Old Christopher Cross song comes to mind.

cordnoy wrote on 04 May 2016 14:17:

Which one?

aaron73 wrote on 04 May 2016 15:31:

Sailin'

Sailing takes me away to where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and the wind to carry me
And soon I will be free

Fantasy, it gets the best of me
When I'm sailing
All caught up in the reverie, every word is a symphony
Won't you believe me?