DaveKo wrote:
I failed.
My mistake for not stoping fantasies.
Be totally clean, is difficult.
That is why stick to the given definition helps to draw the line.
Is up to me next time to that if I feel unclean, but by definition I am clean, continue.
Not look for perfection, and learn to backtrack from slips, do not use them as an excuse.
Like now. Restarting, but not use it as excuse to watch porn. This is serious.
I will restart without porn! Something is something.
May Hashem help my grandmother, deceased yesterday, for the merit of rising as honest and caring man as is my father.
As I wrote I also had a fall today
maybe lets start together will see who is a better fighter
I hope you will be able to start again I'm having you I will have you in mind when I'm praying DaveKo ben GYE