This night I decided to be honest with myself and tried to really complete the 90 days challenge. I had a fall today, so I planned the following strategy:

I will try to read a little of the handbook all nights to motivate myself, because before sleep is my highest struggle problem, so I believe that I can control myself better when motivated before sleep. Also I will read in a path that I can apply what I learned it means that I will implement the steps in my life. I will try to post on the forum my log every day, then I can keep me (and maybe others) clean just for today.

good luck. remember to post.

peloni almoni wrote:


You make sure to post or a big fish will be out to get you


Chazak 18,
Youll be alright.
Keep up your good trucking!!

All the best

Mark

Well let's start... Today will be my first day clean b"h. In the morning I wanted to act out so I took my iphone amd then... No internet conection... Wow! That makes me think that Hashem really helps us when we need, I was there almost falling and The internet is not working, well even this way was difficult to not act out but it was easier and I could pass the test.
Then a few minuts ago I wanted to act out then I started to write ere in the forum.

Why could i fortify me in the morning?
I believe that my thoght that "if Hashem is helping me why I cant put a little bit of effort from my side too". Then I thought "I can pass this just this moment" and I discovered that I really can!!! Shabat Shalom!

Keep it up.

Shabat shalom

Hi everybody, I have to say that unfortunately I fall motzai shabat, well because that I didn't posted here, motzai shabat for me is very difficult, but today I tried to fortify me with the chizuk emails, the handbook and a torah study, yesterday and today I didn't had any difficult struggle B"H! But some lesson must be learned from this fall and I think that the lesson is: 1- study 30min. Of the handbook. 2- make plans in advance for matzai shabat. 3- not use connected devices to just "surf" in the web.

I'm really happy today because i had a hard struggle in the morning and I could win this time! I was thinking in the quote: "one time is too much and a thousand is never enough", this quote helped me a lot to win this struggle today.

I also liked so much the chizuk email today, particularly this part: "This is the same "bad" feeling that I have when I'm lifting weights: it's "bad" only because it hurts my body, but it gives a great feeling from working out. I'm working out right now, and I should enjoy this feeling of NOT giving in, because it's building my spirituality and resilience muscles."

I believe that tonight and tomorrow morning will be easier ti fight...