sleepy wrote on 23 Aug 2019 01:53:

Ohno my post just got deleted...

Conversation I just had with Mr YetzerHorah

Myh-Hey your feeling  stress, tired ,  useless , everyone sleeping ? Grab the computer Im sure you can figure a way to access porn ..

iman-get out of here im back on a cleanstreak and working hard, plus its rosh chodesh elul tomorow let me at least have that.
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myh- exactly tomorrow night is rosh chodesh elul so its perfect - do your evil deeds now and you will have a perfect oppurtunity to restart with the elul hischadshus.

iman- get outta here  thats dumb i will still have to deal with the horrible side effects 

myh-i think you should do it last chance until after yom kippur !(what a sick application of  ואם לא עכשיו, אימתי )

iman- thats it Im going to Gye to write this conversation on the forum , that should stop this nonsense.

myh- ouch hey did you read that article about how global warming is making men go bald quicker ?
    
iman- hmm thats takeh a facinating read ...

myh- pssst dont forget why your on the computer, nu lets go you desreve that delightful pleasure thats awaiting.

iman - alright this is rediculous im logging into gye right now.

Wow.  Thanks for sharing that with us.  I assume, the next morning  you felt great about yourself?

Dave M wrote on 30 Aug 2019 12:40:

No not particularly,  more look I dodged a bullet, the yh is very clever and will casually try to get me.

Nothing casual about today though , I've been dealing with sustained category 5 urges since the AM , I hope not to be overwhelmed tonight..

Evacuate the area, and board up your Windows.

Too dangerous!!!

Follow the evacuation route to Bardsville, Anchorage or Czechoslovakia

Markz wrote on 02 Sep 2019 18:31:

Last I checked Bardsville is an abandoned ghost town 

I think your reaction is a common attitude. I definitely was like that. If you mess up it's terrible, and if you do good you just dodged a bullet. No surprise that I was always depressed - and always fell!



Your best way to have sustained success is to change your attitude about your successes. And it will change your entire life! You'll be so much happier!



Please check out this post I just posted on this topic: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/343341-Need-Urgent-Help#343405">guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/343341-Need-Urgent-Help#343405. And please see this helpful book that is perfect for this: guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation.

I agree with what you are saying,  unfortunately I don't find so easy to change my attitude...

Attitude is one of the hardest things to change. But why don't you try reading a couple of pages from that book a day? It's helpful over time. In fact, the author mentions in it that he wrote it to help people slowly change their attitude.

Does anyone have Mareh Mekomos in which Dov discusses Therapy ?

So much stress before Yomtov - so much to prepare physical and spiritual,  financial pressure, less sleep due to selichot , work more hectic because of lost weekdays,  kollel harder to be areingetun due to all the above, and list could go on.
I'm not c'v complaining I'm privlidged to be part of all this , I'm just being cognizant to the reality that there are additional triggers now ( as well as the other yomtov triggers Rabbi Dr HHM elaborates on)  and I cannot let it go unchecked rather I must be focused on dealing with it appropriately. 

i-man wrote on 26 Sep 2019 02:56:

Oh did I mention Teshuva-Guilt-perfectionism etc..

Man did you hit the nail on the head. Or better said, nails.