Sounds like you have a good attitude, Picking youself up and just KOT! that's great!

I know what you mean about being more comfortable at home, I stayed home for bein hazmanim for that reason. But I think that the more we start living in the moment, the less we will have that problem, as it will all be the same.

Keep on going, try giving living in the moment, one moment at at time, it's amazing!

KOT bro KOMT!!

Thanks your post really means loads to me
Gut Shabbos

Sorry to hear you fell. Did you do anything beforehand to prepare for the nisayon? Perhaps you can make a kabbalah not to watch TV. Maybe make some sort of taphsic (I haven't used it, but some people find it helpful, especially in the short-term) Maybe throw a sheet over the TV to remind yourself that it's off limits. Commit to call someone each day, maybe a few times a day to check in. Stay busy with something else if you can - a good book perhaps (they are better than TV or movies anyway).

Just rambling some ideas.

NOW GET BACK UP, GET BACK IN THE TRUCK, AND KOT!

Love,

gibbor

Have a great Shabbos!

No I didn't do anything before hand wherein was my downfall, this was on holiday so I suppose my defences were down, I have no TV at home and my computer will not let me watch, 'no streaming media, there are still a few dvd's around.
But I'm being careful,
Can someone tell me how to upload an Avatar, I'm having some trouble
Israel

1)Go to the profile tab on the top of the page (under the gye search bar) or just click your name on the top of the page.

2)click the edit button on the top right corner of that page.

3)click the avatar image tab.

4)click choose file if the picture is on your computer.

post if it doesn't work

Tried that but when I press Save it goes all funny, maybe its the speed (or lack there of) of my connection?
Please help

What do you mean by "it goes all funny"? I dont know for sure, but maybe the file is too big, or it's in a format that is not supported. It probably should be a .jpg and not more than say 100K in size (just guessing).

Thanks for all the advice, I got it working like you said
Hope you like my new Avatar!!
But now to catch up.
Firstly reason why It works now as I have a faster Internet connection, I was using a dongle, now I'm fully wireless. I have my computer tagged, by TAG, they have the pass words. My wife and I were finding the dongle too slow and unreliable. But K9 stays on, I admit I 'checked out' if it still worked by going onto You tube, B'H it did, all streaming media is blocked.
But I fully admit, that even after being on K9 for almost a year and being a member of GYE for over 6 months, I KNOW that if my computer wasn't filtered I'd be trying to go to all the sites I used to. I feel bad saying this, does this mean I'm not cured? Am I just 'Holding my breath' Yes I've been clean all that time, only one fall with the TV on holiday as mentioned. But I am only clean because of my filters. Is there a stage when I'll be clean with no filters? Am a really clean and in recovery or have I just forced my hand? maybe the filter is בגדר עשו סייג, then it's O.K, Yes I'm talking to myself and it's late here, feel free to but in.

nice avatar!

If you are clean because of your filters that is valuable in its own right. Part of any recovery is to avoid the object of attraction. avoiding it is not the highest level of recovery but it is crucial. it also develops a habit of not falling. working on your attitude, honesty and facing real life are what will change your inner mechanics. so keep building on your success.
have a great shabbos

Thanks truth is my phone can't be filtered, I can still get You Tube basically on it, but BH I haven't looked.

My wife would like to be able to see some online TV programme, I know how dangerous that would be to have the ability to do this. She's not pushing and I think she'll listen to me, but any advice on how to tell her no.

If you told us, I forgot. What does your wife know about your problem?

I don't think I ever said, but it is an interesting question. She doesn't know that I used to actively look for porn movies, but did know I watched plenty films, and spent lots of time late at night watching, I suspect she had some idea that it wasn't all kosher veYosher. But she didn't know any more.
Interestingly in the bad old days of zivug frustration when I would be pressuring her for sex, she called me a sex addict, and that's all I want. And that's without knowing I looked for porn! It's been mentioned here before, our wives just know!
She has no idea about GYE either, and I'd like to keep it that way, I would be too embarrassed to admit I have a problem.
I did tell her I'm trying to watch less, and I made a big deal about when I put my K9 on. So that brings you up to speed, I've been quite open here.

I'd really want to take off my filter, but I'm not going to, as I know how much time i'd spend watching movies then progressing from bad to worse.
I need my filter, I'd fail and fall if I didn't have it.
Have I progressed or is this just false?
The Rabbonim say if you do use internet you must have a filter so at least I'm keeping to that, I can attest to say how right they are.

is there a way to whitelist her programs?
are you using the same computer?
KOT! (even with the filters!)

b'hatzlachah

Just to update,
BH no movies during most of Elul and so far in Tishri, but been spending lots of time here on GYE