Well that didn't work, I got to my phone before heading to bed. Thankfully I made it to 20 days though! 1 more day till 3 weeks and a few more days till my birthday goal!

Thanks for the encouragement. A non-smart phone isn't going to work for me, but I'm going to delete the app causing trouble and see it I can live without having it.

I'm going to do this. There may be slips, there may even be falls, but I'm going to get out of the mindset of being a person who does this. It's going to become the exception in my life, not the rule.

My friend has my App Store password

What about you?

Excellent and healthy attitude!

Markz wrote on 08 May 2018 13:03:

I had one for a few weeks and of course needed new apps during that time, so it was frustrating. I got rid of it. I'll see if re-downloading the app becomes an issue for me and then reassess.

3 weeks!!!!

Last night was very hard to not have the app on my phone but I didn't do anything - no slip! Awesome feeling when I woke up. 

Mazel tov! Keep it up.

I made it!!
22 days, first goal reached. Great feeling. Hope to keep going.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! 

Sorry I've been MIA, it's been a busy weekend. The first few days I haven't posted here during this streak, but here I am, 25 days and going strong! BH!

Slipped but made it to 26 days!
I was reading this morning about self mastery and the importance of recognizing small wins in the pursuit, an idea that is common here. Well, to think 26 times in a row now I've been confronted with a decision and said no it's quite remarkable! 

Slipped, I'm downloading the app that has led to slips again. Such a physchological game because I have other apps that have led to much worse stuff but I'm not even tempted to look at them, just want the stuff that's "not so bad" because I've convinced myself that looking at it doesn't break the streak.
Thankfully I caught myself. But, a short while afterwards I found myself thinking "why not just do the whole thing? It feels so good and yeah you'd break the streak but look how far I made it this time, I deserve it. I'll start a new streak after." Man oh man what dangerous thoughts. Ugh. Hope to see you all on the right side of the path tomorrow.

HockShmockGeshmock wrote on 15 May 2018 01:49:

Ye, don't think reason ever won that debate.

I find that debating that point is like arguing with a child. It will only make him want whatever he wants more. G-d bless!

Things continued after that pause to come to GYE, but thankfully, didn't escalate. It was a frustrating night. 
27 here

Well, that's bad. Tonight looked at a next "level" of stuff and while it wasn't full out the worst, and I didn't act on it, I don't see how I can say I'm still on a clean streak. Part of this has been a game- can I get to 90 days? Wondering perhaps if that 3 month thing is actually some sort of magic trick that makes it easier. Man all the excuses to keep going tonight came up. Ugh, not a good feeling. Another thing I noticed during this stretch was that I wasn't feeling particularly better about myself than I normally am, and that was a bit of a letdown. I knew that I was earning much schar for the battle and accomplishments I made, but my internal feelings of happiness during the day didn't specifically change. My hope is that I don't come to a full fall, my hope is that if I ever do, I don't let it spiral and give up until another 4 years down the road I come back here saying now I'm ready. Rather, I hope I'd pick myself back up. Wishing everyone here continued success. 

I lost. I appreciate having a place like this to vent my feelings. May Hashem grant me success tomorrow is all I can ask for.