Worked for me.

But I did make an honest commitment to give up lust.
Because I simply couldn't bear to live with my mind the way it had become so warped, so one-track.

There would be no going back. Done with it. Only forward. One day at a time.

Yes, that's true. Thanks MT.

Dear world,
I fell.

It has been incredible.

Since November 1, I have been clean except for 3 "slips" (which are falls enough to make me restart the chart). I looked at 5 minutes of porn one day, masturbated that little first drop once, and looked at a few porn pics another day. Sure, that's bad. But from where I had been, that was remarkable.

And then last night, I lost it. That was November 21. So, for 3 weeks, things have been incredible. Other than the few messups and last night, I have been so proud and so happy of the way things have been going. Last night hurt. It actually hurt physically while doing it, and emotionally - not after, but even as I was doing it. But, that's all over. For some reason, I don't feel down now. For some reason, I'm happy. I'm ready to move on. I know how amazing the majority of the month has been. And frankly, I want to continue that. If you are anything like I was/am - doing it almost daily, then I can at least tell you what it's like for me to move away from that routine. It's amazing.

So, today begins day one again. And this time, I actually have the confidence that I can do it this time. Thank you, Hashem.

HockShmockGeshmock wrote on 22 Nov 2012 15:56:


Sweet. We are all cheering you on. Hatzlocho!

Eli

Thanks for being real. Thanks for the honesty. I wish you strength and lots of humor. ;D (yeah and may Hashem bless me with the same brachos) ;D

For real you keep getting up like Sly in Rocky, that's how winning is done. Anyhow really, just reminded me of that "a thousand times is not enough" - hm, i think it refers to getting up again and asking Hashem for help. :

All the best to You Chaver!!!

Thanks, guys. Turns out that Day One was a lot harder than expected, but I made it through, b"h. It's so freakin scary. That little "taste" has been on my mind since I fell, and I just want to try it again. This journey is so hard.

Hi friends, it's been almost 5 years. B"H I got married and a had a beautiful baby girl. The dream of marriage helping solve this problem was, as forewarned, just a dream (although it has made it somewhat easier). I should have come back here sooner, but I'm happy to come now. Anyone know how to set up iPhone Restrictions with someone remotely accessing my phone to set a password? Can't make it into one of the centers.

HockShmockGeshmock wrote on 22 Oct 2017 23:35:

Welcome back brother!

Welcome Back and Mazel Tov!!!!!

Welcome back and Mazel tov on your marriage and baby! Is the crowd here the same as the last time you logged on?

Yesterday was day 1. I've finally got a filter on my phone but of course have already learned how to get past it. But I'm going to do it, and I'm going to come back here at nights when it's tough. My birthday is in 3 weeks, and my short term goal is to make it till then.

@bgit Sorry I never replied. I didn't take a look around to see, but Gevura responded to me last time I posted, so I know at least he's still around.

Yesterday was day 2, B"H.

Hey great to welcome you back! I'M here again too. was last here 2009. Wish I stayed. wasn't ready than, I am now. From someone who has children your age please take my suggestions(s) to heart. NEVER EVER STOP BEGGING AND PLEADING WITH HASHEM TO TAKE AWAY THE LUST!!!! It does work. Each case is different but it works. You'll start to see a huge difference in the general feeling and attitude in your house and family. The Kiddusha will some how works its way into every area of your life. Watch and see how each day of your recovery allows your family to greatly benefit spiritually and materially. No overnight sensations, just slow and steady improvements. I've seen and experienced these miracles first hand recently.  
Keep it up and never stop.  

Yesterday was day 3. First 3 day steak in a while.

Mazel tov on your accomplishment. May Hashem help you continue.