Day 2:
Same as a regular day 2 - residual urges passing.

Thanks for all the chizuk everybody - I cannot exaggerate how beyond out to lunch I would be if you guys weren't here to knock me around, pick me up, set me straight and join me in the journey!

Everything is going okay - still need to do TBOTG for the day.

Got to bed last night at 1.

Hey, celebrate improvement!

Day 3:
On the topic of improvement I might mention that I no longer watch porn. I'm a non-porn-watcher. It's something I just don't do. It's really a wonderfully free and calm way of life. (I know this may tick you off Cordnoy - I've been trying to incite your participation...)

B'h things are going well!

Last night I went to sleep a little after 2 - I had napped from seven to nine PM so I learned from 12 to 1:30. Not sure if it was the wisest move but it was geshmak not to be stuck on my computer.

Did I just hear “Tikun Chatzos”

Ha!
Day 4:
A wonderful day bh. Healthy natural sex drive starting to rise again and with it the simple callings of lust on the street.
Did well with that, bh.

Had a scare with some chest pain that the doctor told me "doesn't concern him but I should follow up with a cardiologist" - Like what's that supposed to mean - you might die but probably not?! Anyway managed to calm down after complaining to some kind listening ears and had an otherwise productive 24 hours.

Have I mentioned that studies show that non-porn watchers (such as myself) are 415 times more productive than porn watchers?

Did you ask your cardiologist if it’s possible that the chest pains could have been caused by being recently hit on the head repeatedly and with great force by a friendly sledgehammer??

hechochma wrote on 22 Dec 2023 04:42:

This is one of the reasons why I identify as a non-porn-watcher, too.
I mean, I sometimes watch porn, but that's not, like, who I am.

connected wrote on 22 Dec 2023 14:41:

Laughed at this one! I think your productivity level probably depends on "what it is" at that particular time. After all I think that despite ChaimO's protests - it still is what it is ;-)

Day 6:
Apparently some considered what the significance of 415 is:
קדושה
which with the kollel is:
מביא המשיח
and 8 x the tetragrammaton - bringing the chesed elyon down to the world in a way that is higher than the order of nature!!!

Okay - don't judge - I only started with this chassidish stuff recently!!

In other news, there was *yeshivish voice* an uptick *end yeshivish voice* in street lust as the days since my fall start to build up.

But bh doing okay - Friday was a wild day with a fast and me and my wife working and shopping and making shabbos. Had to make some amends with my wife after her very stressful day as I hadn't been appreciative enough for all her work because I was zoned out myself from the fast. Bh amends made and all's better than ever.
Rupture and repair is essential to relationships as they say!

Looking forward to a week that will probably be somewhat challenging and be'h very successful!

I HATE MOTZEI SHABBOS

hechochma wrote on 24 Dec 2023 01:09:

Tell us how you really feel, hold nothing back you’ve only just scratched the tip of the iceberg

Alright foolie, but only because there's a sour-grape shortage on your thread and I'm worried about inflation!

I HATE MOTZE SHABBOS!!!

AND

I waited for my wife in a dark room in an uncomfortable position for an hour and a half (she was supposed to be going to sleep) before we actually got a plan for the night going...

AND

My wife went out with friends and abandoned me here Home Alone - and I'm not having nearly as much fun as Kevin Mcallister...

AND

It's boiling in my house

AND

I hate starting the week

AND

I haven't done anything productive this Shabbos and I didn't nap either!!!

If that wasn't enough for anybody - just pm me...

Great. Now we know why you hate it this week. A great start but still scratching the tip of the iceberg on why you really and truly hate Motzei Shabbos 

Here’s a way out of Motzei Shabbos Blues

I saw posted last week a video of “the Amshinover Rebbe, in an exalted and sacred realm all his own, making Shabbos morning Kiddush at 7:30 p.m. last night, Motzoei Shabbos Chanukah, the holiness of the holy day extending into the mundane…”

Maybe a good idea for you?

Here are some words of wisdom to live by: 

Motzei Shabbos stinks. End it as early as possible. Daven Vosikin Sunday. 

G’Nite.