Read once, then minimize to save screen space.

Forum Overview

Post on the forum to get support, tell your story and reach out for help when feeling weak!

You will never be alone in this struggle again.

The GYE forum is anonymous platform of group support, and a life-line of chizuk for hundreds of people in exactly your situation. 

To use the forum you need to first become a member of the site, sign up here.

After signing up to the site, go to the forum, enter one of our boards and press "New Topic" to begin posting! 

Welcome, Guest

Make it to Yeshiva
(0 viewing) 
Welcome to our forum! Introduce yourself here (anonymously, of course) and get a warm welcome from the rest of the community!

TOPIC: Make it to Yeshiva 27834 Views

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 07:06 #355995

  • YeshivaGuy
  • NOW ONLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 1013
  • Karma: 64
3:00Am. I’m “chalishing” for pritzus videos and to masterbate.
But I haven’t been on bad YouTube vids in around 64 days and been clean with masterbating...
Oy it’s rough.
Its just too easy to be nichshal here...

though I’m letting my mind be occupied by all this trash...
@starting, ur right!

anyway, I’ll be strong tonight.
Gn brothers
Last Edit: 12 Oct 2020 07:08 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 07:29 #355997

  • wilnevergiveup
  • Current streak: 180 days
  • OFFLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 795
  • Karma: 58
YeshivaGuy wrote on 12 Oct 2020 07:06:
though I’m letting my mind be occupied by all this trash...
@starting, ur right!

Whatchya doin about it?

I don't think @starting needs your validation...
Check out My thread  and The Truth

Daily Dose of Clarity

(עשה רצונו כרצונך (אבות,ב:ד

Feel free to email me  wilnevergiveupgye@gmail.com

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 08:16 #355999

  • YeshivaGuy
  • NOW ONLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 1013
  • Karma: 64
wilnevergiveup wrote on 12 Oct 2020 07:29:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 12 Oct 2020 07:06:
though I’m letting my mind be occupied by all this trash...
@starting, ur right!



Whatchya doin about it?

I don't think @starting needs your validation...

Whew! Ur bein tough on me buddy...

I don’t know what I’m doing about it, I gotta make a game plan.
I need a mehalach
Last Edit: 06 Dec 2020 19:04 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 08:20 #356000

  • YeshivaGuy
  • NOW ONLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 1013
  • Karma: 64
I’ll admit.
I haven’t been so careful with Shmiras eynayim tonight- seeein pics of girls but still holding back from touching etc.
But that’s is clearly not a mehalach for many reasons.

You got me man, you are right.
Oy it’s so late- 4:19, we’ll talk more tomorrow

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 08:22 #356001

  • YeshivaGuy
  • NOW ONLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 1013
  • Karma: 64
Fine I’ll delete the app.
Yetzer Tov, tonight You win.

Gn

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 08:35 #356002

  • wilnevergiveup
  • Current streak: 180 days
  • OFFLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 795
  • Karma: 58
YeshivaGuy wrote on 12 Oct 2020 08:22:
Fine I’ll delete the app.
Yetzer Tov, tonight You win.

Gn

Yetzer Tov doesn't win, I @YeshivaGuy (or whatever your name is) wins.

It's funny, the ba'alei mussar point out, imagine a conversation in your brain between the Y"H and Y"T. one of them is always talking as you and the other talking as an outsider. Can you guess who is who?
It's always "I" need to do x, y, or z and the Y"T nebach has to stand on the outside telling you, "you know, really "you" shouldn't etc. ain't that backwards? 

This is how the Y"H tricks us, he makes us think that he is us (this is what it means when Adam Harishon sinned the Y"H went inside of us. He is not just in our subconscious minds, he actually has us defining ourselves by his terms). 

We can't forget that the truth is the opposite, we are our neshama, our intellect. It's not a battle between the Y"H and Y"T, the Y"T doesn't win, You do.
Check out My thread  and The Truth

Daily Dose of Clarity

(עשה רצונו כרצונך (אבות,ב:ד

Feel free to email me  wilnevergiveupgye@gmail.com

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 09:33 #356003

wilnevergiveup wrote on 12 Oct 2020 08:35:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 12 Oct 2020 08:22:
Fine I’ll delete the app.
Yetzer Tov, tonight You win.

Gn

Yetzer Tov doesn't win, I @YeshivaGuy (or whatever your name is) wins.

It's funny, the ba'alei mussar point out, imagine a conversation in your brain between the Y"H and Y"T. one of them is always talking as you and the other talking as an outsider. Can you guess who is who?
It's always "I" need to do x, y, or z and the Y"T nebach has to stand on the outside telling you, "you know, really "you" shouldn't etc. ain't that backwards? 

This is how the Y"H tricks us, he makes us think that he is us (this is what it means when Adam Harishon sinned the Y"H went inside of us. He is not just in our subconscious minds, he actually has us defining ourselves by his terms). 

We can't forget that the truth is the opposite, we are our neshama, our intellect. It's not a battle between the Y"H and Y"T, the Y"T doesn't win, You do.

I totally agree with this. The Gra on Mishlei writes that one of the yetzers biggest tricks is he makes us believe that he is part of us, that he is us. He's not the little red devil with a pitchfork whispering seductive things in our ear, rather he makes us believe what we truly want is what he wants. It takes those flashes of clarity and special moments, such as Yom Kippur and other times, to see through his lies, and realize this just isn't the real me.

Anyway @yeshivaguy, good to hear your keeping strong. Looking forward to hearing those plans you have.

p.s. Do you try going to sleep early and just lie awake, or do you go to sleep late? Cos' often night time itself can be a trigger for people, so early bedtime may help.

יהי רצון שהדברים לתועלת

Today I will do what others won't, so tomorrow I can do what others can't.
We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit.
We all make choices in life, but in the end, our choices make us.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 17:24 #356017

  • YeshivaGuy
  • NOW ONLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 1013
  • Karma: 64
Good point, ya, I’ve been goin to sleep late.
When not in Yeshiva it’s harder to go to bed earlier.
But ur totally right, 1-4am is quite a trigger 

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Oct 2020 18:14 #356018

  • wilnevergiveup
  • Current streak: 180 days
  • OFFLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 795
  • Karma: 58
I hope you slept in, or have a really nice rest this afternoon...
Check out My thread  and The Truth

Daily Dose of Clarity

(עשה רצונו כרצונך (אבות,ב:ד

Feel free to email me  wilnevergiveupgye@gmail.com

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 13 Oct 2020 01:16 #356040

  • YeshivaGuy
  • NOW ONLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 1013
  • Karma: 64
Pretty stressed.
Felt empty today. I feel like I just wasted time.
So hard to not be in a Makom Aliya.
The Yetzer wants to build off this and make me masterbate, go online etc, after all, I had such an empty and pointless day with barely any learning, and everyone around me is just so stressed out- driving me nuts.
I’m not giving in, but it still feels superhuman,
feels like I’m fighting absolutely everything-defying nature.
Which is so difficult.
Feels like I’m restraining a lion on a leash.

Anyway folks, thnx for hearing me out.

Hatzlocha!
Last Edit: 13 Oct 2020 01:17 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 13 Oct 2020 01:28 #356042

  • YeshivaGuy
  • NOW ONLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 1013
  • Karma: 64
wilnevergiveup wrote on 12 Oct 2020 05:27:
What are you planning on keeping yourself busy with until Yeshiva starts?

This is the question.
Im gonna make Esrog vodka, but that doesn’t take so long.
Thinkin of other stuff.
The thing is that I need something meaningful.
I can’t be סובל pointless distractions. It just gets me depressed.
Thats my struggle with the concept of “keeping myself busy”
I need a meaningful outlet.
All suggestions are welcome and appreciated
Last Edit: 13 Oct 2020 01:29 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 13 Oct 2020 03:10 #356050

  • Markz
  • Current streak: 197 days
  • OFFLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 7540
  • Karma: 384
YeshivaGuy wrote on 12 Oct 2020 07:06:
3:00Am. I’m “chalishing” for pritzus videos and to masterbate.
But I haven’t been on bad YouTube vids in around 64 days and been clean with masterbating...
Oy it’s rough.
Its just too easy to be nichshal here...

though I’m letting my mind be occupied by all this trash...
@starting, ur right!

anyway, I’ll be strong tonight.
Gn brothers

Yup it’s rough. 
Youre doing great. 
What’s the plan for tonight.
You have any friends around?
My Story---------Dov Quotes




FREE LUST TRUCK TOWING
Click HERE to checkout;
100 Day Success Stories: cordnoy, Dov, Gevura and more...
• Awesome Threads Saved for You
• Cast Your Vote

GYE Plenty Solutions
➣ The Mark of Torah - Lust Chizuk

➣ Nice Trucking Story

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 13 Oct 2020 03:45 #356051

  • YeshivaGuy
  • NOW ONLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 1013
  • Karma: 64
Markz wrote on 13 Oct 2020 03:10:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 12 Oct 2020 07:06:
3:00Am. I’m “chalishing” for pritzus videos and to masterbate.
But I haven’t been on bad YouTube vids in around 64 days and been clean with masterbating...
Oy it’s rough.
Its just too easy to be nichshal here...

though I’m letting my mind be occupied by all this trash...
@starting, ur right!

anyway, I’ll be strong tonight.
Gn brothers

Yup it’s rough. 
Youre doing great. 
What’s the plan for tonight.
You have any friends around?

Friends, not so many where I live.
Plans for tonight: blending frozen bananas which makes ligit banana ice cream

edit: banana zach didn’t work out, but I’ll daven then head to bed
Last Edit: 13 Oct 2020 04:06 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 13 Oct 2020 04:46 #356058

Do you enjoy exercise? When I first got sober, exercise was critical. The Biale rebbe actually recommended it to me when I confided in him what I was going through. You feel great afterwards and relieves a lot of stress. Made the struggle much much easier. 

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 13 Oct 2020 04:59 #356060

  • i-man
  • Current streak: 1 day
  • OFFLINE
  • Platinum Boarder
  • Posts: 497
  • Karma: 54
YeshivaGuy wrote on 13 Oct 2020 01:28:

wilnevergiveup wrote on 12 Oct 2020 05:27:
What are you planning on keeping yourself busy with until Yeshiva starts?

This is the question.
Im gonna make Esrog vodka, but that doesn’t take so long.
Thinkin of other stuff.
The thing is that I need something meaningful.
I can’t be סובל pointless distractions. It just gets me depressed.
Thats my struggle with the concept of “keeping myself busy”
I need a meaningful outlet.
All suggestions are welcome and appreciated

I have an idea for you , now that you have shown that it’s possible to succeed in very difficult circumstances, reach out to some of the guys here who are in a similar situation,you have no idea what a boost it could be for someone, and you may even make some friends .
Time to create page: 0.58 seconds

Are you sure?

Yes