I am 28 year chasidish men , I got married for 7 years ago, however since I was at the age of 13 yrs I started having to struggle fithing with הוז"ל , I am was born בטבע with a very worm hart, meaning in both ways, I was always praying with tremendous amount of השתפכות הנפש and ווארעמקייט, and I am appearing to be from the ערנסטע יונגעלייט in the community, however a warm hart also means a warm hart to תאוות.
I am a smart man, however I am a big "thinker" I analyze everything, I like to use my brain, the first few yeares after I got married I learned in kollel, but I had not sipuk anough, I started doing Software Programming.
In the community I see my self isolated from the people, most of the time נסיונות happen to me after a while when I don't have a tight schedule.
Does anyone find himself in such a category?

שלום עליכם פדס
אסאך ווי מי און דיר זענען אין דעם ״קאטאגרי״

נעם אוועק די אותיות ״אגרי״ און ״ק.א.ט״!!!!

Welcome. You are in the same boat as many of us. Stay connected. Keep posting. Iyh you will get out of this mess.

Welcome!  Read the handbook.  I think you may find it enlightening.  I would also recommend Dr. Sorotzkins article on the "psycological factors of acting out".  there is a link to his site in my signature.

Isolation is a biggie. Do you have friends?  Do you consider yourself a perfectionist? (if so Dr. Sorotzkin has a great article on that as well).

Keep posting.  Your situation is very common.

Thanks a lot