Hi,

Welcome,

Recovery should be with hatzlachah.

GuardMyEyes26 wrote on 26 Feb 2017 05:56:

I said hi already!!!!!
You call this thread my battle
Purim is soon so grab a bottle
WoodFord is the brand if you driving a Ford Truck

thank you markz and cordnoy for replying.
you guys made me feel less alone.

Welcome. You're in the right place.

First of all please take time to read through the GYE handbook.  No two people are the same, everyone has a slightly different set of circumstances, but we all share this problem and since we share the problem we can share the solution too. The book is written in a general way so it can apply to everyone. I found it helpful to really think about what the book was saying and how it applied to me and my own life.

This is a very common problem nowadays, you're far from the only one to deal with it. The word addict gets thrown around quite a lot, but most people who struggle with this issue are not addicts, just normal people with a normal yetzer hora. Which is good. Some people have come to realise that they really are addicts because their situation got gradually worse and worse despite working on it. When I say worse I mean, in frequency, severity or just feeling worse after every slip. If that is the case we may need more than GYE, which most people find to be therapy or SA or both. But I wouldn't jump to that conclusion about you. Many people have overcome this challenge right here on GYE using the tools in the handbook.

So stick around. Keep posting, keep reading and keep on trucking.

Welcome!

You're never a hopeless case!

You say when there isn't any access to it around in immediate reach, you're OK. I gleaned that from your report of a clean streak since the first internet filter. So are you addicted? If you can hold off it if there's no access, see there's something to it!

You know what, I think you are right, I am not an addict i am just a guy with a normal Yetzer Hara.
I have no right to just give in to my Y"H and blame it on addiction because i am not addicted, its just an excuse. Thank you for pointing that out.

GuardMyEyes26 wrote on 28 Feb 2017 04:10:

I'm confused what is an addict and what not. Listen to this dov shop and if you're addicted to gye come back and let me know what you think 

GuardMyEyes26 wrote on 28 Feb 2017 04:10:

II have no idea if you're addicted or not.
I don't know much about the y"h either.
The one thin' I do know, I think, is that excuses or blamin' or givin' in will get nobody anywhere, no matter what.

So, continue the positive attitude please.

B'hatzlachah

Thank you, Cordnoy
I will try to stay positive, fo now its not so hard as 
i'm only on day 4.Im Yirtzeh Hashem this time around I'll make it to 700 and beyond like you.
to tell you the truth i"m more inspired by your 700 and markz and singularity then by those who've been clean for 10 years+ because they are out of my league (its like saying R' chaim can do it so I can too) so that wont get me too far. But you guys, you seem like regular jews fighting just like me, so thank you for inspiring me and getting me through at least tonight and hopefully forever(sorry,not likely).

Don't worry about forever.

Markz, I would love to listen to this "dov Shop" however its over an hour long and i am bombed when come home i"m usually sleeping within an hour of walking in the door so i dont think i'll be able to listen to it but if you can provide with the relevant information i'd be eternally grateful(Bli neder).

I Know, i know One day at a time.
Im off to bed i got to be up in a couple hours,
Good night world.

Personally talking from my own experience, the quickest hours of my life ever were in front of porn at the computer.
One minute its 11pm the next is 12:30!! where did the time go..
Maybe save this workshop for the next time you go near a device for the wrong reasons...
If we have an hour (Oy!! how many hours!!!) for acting out we will find an hour to listen to the shop...
Its a great little taphsic for you also to hold on to..
Literally the next time you go to act out, pull up this thread and start to listen.
My 2.5c

GuardMyEyes26 wrote on 28 Feb 2017 05:40:

Well, better GYE keeping you up than other things.