My current failings are limited to P* and M*.

Thanks for caring, Cordnoy. It is people like you that allow me to hope that my honest sharing at GYE will help me restore and maintain my sanity.

Hayom yom 3

Thanks Dov for your heartfelt words. True, I do not know whether my situation is called addiction or what. All I do know is that my life is quite messed up. I should have gone for help decades ago. I realize that GYE forums are not the ultimate solution, but I think it's a tiny step in the right direction. Unfortunately, my 'gaivah' is not ready for taking the bigger, more real steps. But bl"n I'm not running away, and I plan to continue to share honestly how things are going. So maybe one day I'll mature to the next level of sanity, whatever that may involve.

Do you struggle with porn at all?
How was the last week?

Many guys like to call dov. He's a sweet fellow.

I have his number, but I think he likes to give it out on personal invite

Markz wrote on 28 Nov 2016 15:16:

 B"H I don't "struggle" with porn. As long as I keep my fences, I'm okay. But every now and then, I lose my balance and fall. Lately, my falls were mast* w/o porn. Just acting out fantasies.

Hayom yom 4

(Those following this thread may have noticed that all traces of my 'unfavorable misdeeds' have been 'eradicated'. I take this as a positive sign from heaven, and as an incentive to 'keep my slate clean'.)

I don't mean to burst your bubble, especially if it helps you stay clean, but the moderators regularly edit out various things, such as overly triggering content or content that might reveal our identities, protecting us from ourselves. 
If injustices were committed, having them wiped off this forum is not a sign that all is fine and dandy.

I hear you loud and clear. You are 100% right. Injustices were committed. All is not fine and dandy. But as you allude, staying clean is also something to focus on. (Admittedly, I was being a bit sarcastic on something that's actually more serious. But at the same time, I was trying to reinforce myself not to let this pull me down.)

Hayom yom 5

...this is what Reb Nachman says:
אזמרה לאלקי בעודי
as in - עוד מעט ואין רשע
Every person, no matter how lowly he is, has some good point within him.
And for that, he should thank Hashem and sing to Him.

Hayom yom 6
("Sick's days!")

A good Chodesh to all.

Hayom yom 7

Baruch Hashem - A full week!
Blessed is He who gives strength to the weak.

A good Shabbos to all

Hayom yom 9

9 = nine= ניין 

The Slonimer Rebbe zt"l writes:
מי יתן טהור מטמא, לא אחד - איוב יד:ד
How can an impure person achieve purity?
לא אחד - one "ניין" - just say ניין once and for all.

Here at GYE, לא אחד can mean - one ניין at a time.

Hayom yom 10

Ten is a whole number.
Ten is also a holy number.
העשירי יהיה קודש

Hayom yom 11

Praise the Lord in heaven!

Hayom yom 12  (י"ב  - ב"י)

אין הדבר תלוי אלא
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- (ר"א בן דורדיא)

We are fully responsible for our recovery - (GYE Handbook)

Hayom yom 13

Mini Bar Mitzvah (יום לשנה)