Hi All
I am a 35 year old I have been strugelling sionc eI was 14 year old and not spoek or told any one, I am married now with fe children and are a respected communtiy memebr and no one knwoes my struggles are and the aviries i do, It starts with phoen sex and tehn can go to pick uop prostestues on teh street in my car, I want to be good and can be clear for a few month in ago tehn get on agin, I was off now for over a year bh but yestrday i faiel dagain and i was sreching onlien for soem help and just found out yesterday about this forum and hoep hasehm will help me trough here.
Thansk for all your good work

Welcome to the Holy Community
take off ur Hat & Rekel, make urself comfortable.
 

Welcome

Most guys hide behind a fictitious name and take months or years to recover, so you're taking some brave steps here

May you be successful on this road!!

א-ל תתייאש

Welcome to this wonderful community. By participating in the forum you will learn very quickly that you are not alone and that people do succeed in breaking free from these habits even after years of struggling. 
A good place to start is reading the GYE Handbook. 
Hatzlacha! 

Welcome.

Welcome.
I understand the temptations you face, the short lived intense adrenaline rush of meeting a  prostitute.
Remember how low it can feel after you finish with the prostitutes.
Use that feeling to motivate you.

Why do you pick them up?

Personally, my triggers were the lows that these cause, and a need to escape the lows:

Hungry
Angry (Resentful about something)
Lonely
Tired.

HALT.

If you can recognise you are feeling one or more of the above then get as soon as possible to a place where you are with family or friends, or log on here, or pray to Hashem.

Hi Reb Hatzlocha,
Clearly HKB"H has decided that you were zocheh to a big yeshia because he sent you to this wonderful GYE site. There are so many chusheve yidden on here that have so much experience and recovery that you can learn so much from and get much chizzuk from. You will find rabbonim, dayanim, rebbeim and maggidei shiurim on here as well as many ehrliche chushive balebatim. We have many many shtreimlach, black hats, kapotes, reshvulkes and rekelach as well as kipot srugot from ages 15 through 65 so you are in good company wherever you are.We all have this nisayon and we all can be healed from it if we really are prepared to do whatever it takes.
I have much to share about my struggle with you if you care to communicate privately. You can email me to pischoshelmachat@gmail.com and we can communicate anonymously. I have been greatly helped by speaking to people like myself who are in recovery and have shared with me and help me with recovery.
A Groise Vareme Boorich Haboo!!