You wrote



We can cry to Hashem to take over the challenge from our incapable hands. Someone that can't visualize a challenge has even more about what to cry about

I replied to that point on the same lines

Crazy day. Haven't been feeling well. Exhausted. Head not on straight but B'H on enough- at least for now, not to fall. Please say tehillem for Shmira ben Avraham Avinu. Thank you 

You realize your initials are SAA?
Interesting... Maybe checkout SAA

Markz wrote:

What does SAA stand for?

also, are there any R Twerskie books in particular that you enjoyed?

Stayed home today. Feeling a little better but still not %100. Trying to catch up from all the running around and being sick yesterday.
maybe this is a sign I should just take deep breaths and think about life and what I should be doing to keep the life I B'H have been able to retain recently.

Haven't been thinking about life or anything for that matter besides that my head started hurting and still sick. Can't really think so clearly. Am I a sicko? I have been getting these fleeting thoughts about certain female figures from the past during mincha. I am still astonished by my human pathetic brain. Here I am, happily married . Davening. And still... 

shmirashachaim wrote:

SAA is an anonymous group of recovering guys that will be very happy to have you join and you don't even have to tell them your father's name is Abraham

Rabbi Twersky on the Parsha is what I share over sometimes at the tisch, it's really awesome

Markz wrote:

haha.. Probably one of the dumbest questions I have asked, being on GYE for so long:laughing:


Oh yah, And I guess I lied about it being my first R Twersky book. I have the parshah one too and have been looking at it.
Last week I used it as a springboard for getting into addiction (thought would be a good idea). By the Friday night meal by the in-laws, we were discussing how it can be possible that the yidden messed up so many times in the midbar (not the first time the question has been asked). So we talked about it. Shabbas mornings I pulled R Twersk's book on the parsha off the shelf, and read his take on why Hashem said to have korach's pans melted and used as the cover for the mizbeach. R Twersky talked about the passak's reasoning for this: to "learn from history", and brought out the difficulty of doing so from the alcoholics he treated, where no matter how many times they drank and got messed up from it, they would do it again, and again, and again. 
I took out from there a new outlook on how klal yisroel acted in the midbar; a simple yet powerful one. When one asks:how can the Bnei Yisroel consistenty make the same mistakes over and over again, we can point to the phenomenon in ourselves. R Twersky said everyone has this middah, but it's especially noticeable in addicts. No matter how many times the act turns sour, we do it again. I think it's more than just saying "we can't understand what Klal Yosroel went through in that generation, and therefore can't judge", rather it's that we do understand them at a certain level by looking at ourselves and how our brains (and especially the messed up one of he addict) work.


 

Been home all day again. Inaction could be as bad as too much action. How spoiled am I to want just in the middle? Lesson is what ever is thrown my way that's what I do. 
Also, I pushed off the inappropriate material I needed to do a little while ago. I can't push it off any longer. Struggling.
last time it was together with a butch of things falling on me at once. Now it's not like that, but still.... 

shmirashachaim wrote on 15 Jul 2016 01:27:

what do you mean?

College work

Not sure what others could say. In the past I would of sucked it up and not say anything here. I wouldn't want to even admit that I'm contemplating this. But I have learnt to just let out my mind on these forums. 

shmirashachaim wrote:

What type of college work?
You becoming a math professor?
That can be very stressful and I understand if it causes you to seek inappropriate outlets elsewhere

So deal with it
Either join SAA
Or Join NASA (become a rocket scientist)

Hey Markz.. You've been quiet for a while.

im not sure if I should say as it might cause triggers for others. 

And your very into SAA these days Markz! 
I have been considering NASA as well, Mars might be the only place that doesn't have triggers everywhere like this crazy planet.