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Re: My story 12 May 2017 17:47 #312979

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Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:21:

cordnoy wrote on 01 May 2017 21:15:


GYE gave me the opportunity to personally meet many fine fellows. I will list them, for I thank each and every one of them for their friendship, advice, suggestions, criticisms, etc. 
Pidaini
Lizhensk
Big moish
Gibbor (need more)
Skeptical (although we need a better meet)
DD
Unanumun
Laasos
Still going
Zemmy
Jake
Innastruggle
Lavi
Pischoshelmachat
Fresh start
RGT
Kilochalu
Misgaber
SB

I was within a hundred feet from:
Gevura
Guard
Shlomo

I have had private and personal conversation with:
Grow strong
TZ
Dov
Real simcha
Godhelp
OTR
tzomah
ShmielZ
Shteiger
Yesod
shemirashabris
Dms123456789
Yesod
Workin'guy
Laughin'man
Serenity
MoB
MarkZ
Yidtryin'harder
Chullent kin'
Trouble
Belmont
ShmuliK
Boropark yid
Israel61320
Watson
Mggmbs
YosefTH
Appearance

I have been in touch with:
Yiraishamaim
Maayan
NIC
Aryeh
Hashivalisassonyishechaimisgabecha
Shivisi
PeloniAlmoni
DuvidChaim
Eli
Lifnei
Lomed
Shtiebel
SIB14628
Joe
Singularity
NewActin'
MendelZ
Shmeichel
MBJ





Ahem...

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My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads:
GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

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Last Edit: 08 Jun 2017 11:41 by cordnoy.

Re: My story 12 May 2017 17:56 #312980

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We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.
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Re: My story 12 May 2017 19:00 #312983

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cordnoy wrote on 12 May 2017 17:46:
They play a much bigger role in my head than men do.

Lucky you
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל

And every day that you want to waste, that you want to waste, you can
And every day that you want to wake up, that you want to wake, you can
And every day that you want to change, that you want to change, yeah
I'll help you see it through...



My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

Re: My story 12 May 2017 19:01 #312984

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Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:56:
We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.

Unfortunately you're not the first...

Each one is a tragedy

Many don't know how to get out of the rut, so they escape to drugs, for example Porn

Many have made it out of the rut of victim hood, but many are stuck there and need Towing if they are willing

I see you have your arm out
Are you looking for a hitch  ?
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Re: My story 12 May 2017 20:00 #312989

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Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 15:13:

The few things I would enjoy are the following:

Philosophy
Psychology
Humor
Music
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!


So I would like to try out here on the forum, and I indulge you that you please respectfully give me a piece of your mind on anything I write.

Totally fine with that. If you are going to practice psychology on the forum, Please put a disclamer. Especially if you feel you are a
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Re: My story 13 May 2017 21:01 #312995

Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:56:
We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.

Dovid Hamelach
Shunned by his father and brothers
Looked at like a mamzer by the towns people 
I don't remember about hos mother
my thread:guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/300426-I-will-make-it-bh" option="guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/300426-I-will-make-it-bh">I will make it b"h


guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21" option="guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21">FEEL THE HUGS!!!

Re: My story 14 May 2017 01:46 #313002

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Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:56:
We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.

I feel like there's a thousand people in recovery who have horror stories from childhood. From both parents. 
What works for me: 1) Honesty 2) Meetings 3) 12-step 4) Listening to my Sponsor 5) Not doing what I want to do 6) Inviting the God of my understanding into my life

"I can't do it, God can help." | "Everything I want is on the other side of fear." | "Where there is deprivation there is addiction." | "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery." | "Stop stopping, start living."

My thread: Big Steps

Email: iam24zman@gmail.com

Re: My story 14 May 2017 19:14 #313054

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Markz wrote on 12 May 2017 19:01:

Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:56:
We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.

Unfortunately you're not the first...

Each one is a tragedy

Many don't know how to get out of the rut, so they escape to drugs, for example Porn

Many have made it out of the rut of victim hood, but many are stuck there and need Towing if they are willing

I see you have your arm out
Are you looking for a hitch  ?

I'll tell you what, when I was in deep depression mode I was deflecting all types of chizzuk, like for example beshvili nivra haolam, additionally when someone would say "Hey look at all great people in history had a rough going" I would say "yeah, at least they had one parent".

But now I am bit better Mooded (if that's a word), I'm just academically asking if there is a such person in history and perhaps I can take some chizzuk from that person and of there isn't such a person, then either me or some other people here will need to be the first one. 
My thread/My story

Slogans and Sayings

Relapses and falling are inevitable, the challenge is getting up.

Tzaddikim are the not the ones that don't fall, they are the ones that fall constantly and get up constantly.

Feel free to contact me anytime through private message or chat.

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Re: My story 14 May 2017 19:17 #313055

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MayanHamisgaber wrote on 13 May 2017 21:01:

Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:56:
We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.

Dovid Hamelach
Shunned by his father and brothers
Looked at like a mamzer by the towns people 
I don't remember about hos mother

I have heard from Rabbi Yossi Mizrachi that his mother cared for him, her name was nitzeves. That is why he says in hallel "Ani avdechu ben amusechu". Although there is another posuk "Ki uvi v'imee azuveenu...". 
My thread/My story

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Relapses and falling are inevitable, the challenge is getting up.

Tzaddikim are the not the ones that don't fall, they are the ones that fall constantly and get up constantly.

Feel free to contact me anytime through private message or chat.

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Re: My story 14 May 2017 19:19 #313056

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Shlomo24 wrote on 14 May 2017 01:46:

Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:56:
We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.

I feel like there's a thousand people in recovery who have horror stories from childhood. From both parents. 

True true. But is there anyone in HISTORY that became one of our greats. People here are great people but it would be nice to look back in history and say "Yeah! That's the person I want to be like."
My thread/My story

Slogans and Sayings

Relapses and falling are inevitable, the challenge is getting up.

Tzaddikim are the not the ones that don't fall, they are the ones that fall constantly and get up constantly.

Feel free to contact me anytime through private message or chat.

Chizzuk emails by Rabbi Duvid Ashear shlita that can change your day subscribe now.

Check out my powerful tefila.

Depressed? Check out some of my jokes

Re: My story 14 May 2017 19:27 #313058

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Mesayin wrote on 14 May 2017 19:14:

Markz wrote on 12 May 2017 19:01:

Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:56:
We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.

Unfortunately you're not the first...

Each one is a tragedy

Many don't know how to get out of the rut, so they escape to drugs, for example Porn

Many have made it out of the rut of victim hood, but many are stuck there and need Towing if they are willing

I see you have your arm out
Are you looking for a hitch  ?

I'll tell you what, when I was in deep depression mode I was deflecting all types of chizzuk, like for example beshvili nivra haolam, additionally when someone would say "Hey look at all great people in history had a rough going" I would say "yeah, at least they had one parent".

But now I am bit better Mooded (if that's a word), I'm just academically asking if there is a such person in history and perhaps I can take some chizzuk from that person and of there isn't such a person, then either me or some other people here will need to be the first one. 

II really wanted to stay away from this discussion, but I'm gettin' pulled in.

Allow me please to say one thin': famous vort from one of the rebbes where everyone was complainin' about their lot, so they all deposited their "peckels" in a room and were told they can choose whichever one they want. Needless to say, they all chose their own.

My story is well known by many. I don't think that too many here have the amounts and severity of the issues that I B"H have (and I am very grateful for the part of my life where the issues are minimal and am grateful that the severe issues are what they are as well....whatever  the Hell that means), and now that I have been actively workin' the program for some time, I would never use my BAD WORD REMOVEDty life as an excuse for my torrid behavior. Just me sayin'.

B'hatzlachah
My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads:
GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.
Last Edit: 14 May 2017 19:29 by cordnoy.

Re: My story 14 May 2017 19:33 #313059

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I echo Cordnoy's statement. I was remaining apolitical but I did want to say something. Now I don't have to. My life became much less (ahem)y when I stopped focusing on how (ahem)y it was and I actually started taking recovery actions. But I hear where you are coming from. I relate to it about my SSA. There was a time when I was desperate to find someone who had "overcame" their SSA. I just wanted to know if someone had did it, as a source of hope. I am way past that now, I don't even consider SSA an issue, but I can relate to the feeling. Ultimately, while your feelings may be completely valid, Mesayin, I'm not so sure that they are beneficial to you in any way. It definitively wasn't for me. I don't regret my past anymore. In fact, I embrace it because it was instrumental for me to become the person I am today. And I am quite pleased with that person, for the most part.
What works for me: 1) Honesty 2) Meetings 3) 12-step 4) Listening to my Sponsor 5) Not doing what I want to do 6) Inviting the God of my understanding into my life

"I can't do it, God can help." | "Everything I want is on the other side of fear." | "Where there is deprivation there is addiction." | "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery." | "Stop stopping, start living."

My thread: Big Steps

Email: iam24zman@gmail.com
Last Edit: 14 May 2017 19:34 by Shlomo24.

Re: My story 14 May 2017 19:35 #313060

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cordnoy wrote on 14 May 2017 19:27:

Mesayin wrote on 14 May 2017 19:14:

Markz wrote on 12 May 2017 19:01:

Mesayin wrote on 12 May 2017 17:56:
We all know that all the great people in history suffered a bunch, then overcame their suffering and became great people.

But I still can't find someone in history that both of his parents messed him up.

Does any one know of such a person?

If not, then I'm going to have to be the first one.

Unfortunately you're not the first...

Each one is a tragedy

Many don't know how to get out of the rut, so they escape to drugs, for example Porn

Many have made it out of the rut of victim hood, but many are stuck there and need Towing if they are willing

I see you have your arm out
Are you looking for a hitch  ?

I'll tell you what, when I was in deep depression mode I was deflecting all types of chizzuk, like for example beshvili nivra haolam, additionally when someone would say "Hey look at all great people in history had a rough going" I would say "yeah, at least they had one parent".

But now I am bit better Mooded (if that's a word), I'm just academically asking if there is a such person in history and perhaps I can take some chizzuk from that person and of there isn't such a person, then either me or some other people here will need to be the first one. 

II really wanted to stay away from this discussion, but I'm gettin' pulled in.

Allow me please to say one thin': famous vort from one of the rebbes where everyone was complainin' about their lot, so they all deposited their "peckels" in a room and were told they can choose whichever one they want. Needless to say, they all chose their own.

My story is well known by many. I don't think that too many here have the amounts and severity of the issues that I B"H have (and I am very grateful for the part of my life where the issues are minimal and am grateful that the severe issues are what they are as well....whatever  the Hell that means), and now that I have been actively workin' the program for some time, I would never use my BAD WORD REMOVEDty life as an excuse for my torrid behavior. Just me saying.

B'hatzlachah

Thanks for your input but I think you may have read my posts with the wrong 'trupin', with the wrong tune.

Whenever I or anybody else are in deep depression we use all types of excuses to justify whatever the heck we are doing just for the fact that it is too painful to face reality, that is exactly what I was doing. This probably doesn't come to a surprise to you but hey, maybe it does.

My question is, as I wrote previously, is an ACADEMIC question, in other words "a history lesson" and perhaps I can take some chizzuk from that. If no one can come up with anything then I will just move on anyway.

Please don't make me need to put musical notes in my posts.
My thread/My story

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Relapses and falling are inevitable, the challenge is getting up.

Tzaddikim are the not the ones that don't fall, they are the ones that fall constantly and get up constantly.

Feel free to contact me anytime through private message or chat.

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Re: My story 14 May 2017 19:45 #313061

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I just wrote a long post that didn't go through. Oh well. I'll guess my immense wisdom will be unavailable for the public right now.
What works for me: 1) Honesty 2) Meetings 3) 12-step 4) Listening to my Sponsor 5) Not doing what I want to do 6) Inviting the God of my understanding into my life

"I can't do it, God can help." | "Everything I want is on the other side of fear." | "Where there is deprivation there is addiction." | "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery." | "Stop stopping, start living."

My thread: Big Steps

Email: iam24zman@gmail.com

Re: My story 14 May 2017 20:01 #313062

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Shlomo24 wrote on 14 May 2017 19:45:
I just wrote a long post that didn't go through. Oh well. I'll guess my immense wisdom will be unavailable for the public right now.

What a shame, we are just going to have to be happy with my immense wisdom. Although I am eagerly looking forward to yours.
My thread/My story

Slogans and Sayings

Relapses and falling are inevitable, the challenge is getting up.

Tzaddikim are the not the ones that don't fall, they are the ones that fall constantly and get up constantly.

Feel free to contact me anytime through private message or chat.

Chizzuk emails by Rabbi Duvid Ashear shlita that can change your day subscribe now.

Check out my powerful tefila.

Depressed? Check out some of my jokes
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