I just want to say that in mainstream yeshivos there are indeed people a bochur can talk to about these inyonim. Despite having that, I also slept in a lot. Everyone has their own path to travel...

For me it was the mashgiach. As a policy this was not a topic that was discussed openly and there was no sign hung up saying that appointments to discuss inyonei kedusha can be made between 4 and 6 pm. It was scary the first time I broached the topic (I was 15 or 16) but I'm glad I did. The response was overwhelmingly positive. There was no reproach, no disparagement. As far as I recall he said he was so happy I had brought up the topic so that he could help me with it.

There is a wonderful series of Shiurim on GYE called Dear Bochur where he says that in one yeshiva, one of the hanhalah set aside one week to discuss it in public and announce that he was available for anyone who was struggling (is there anyone who isn't?). I never saw that myself.

I went to a decently yeshivish yeshiva and the one rebbi who i thought was way too yeshivish to know of such things was the rebbi who was cool about porn and masturbation. i didn't shock him.

I have completely fallen back to my old ways. I have no control and I don't really feel that I care anymore. I have no access to GYE which makes things much worse. I am slipping lower and lower in lust and yeshiva. I am much more depressed and anxious. I am much more agitated and cynical. I can't stand being around people. I don't see an end in sight.

Thanks Aryeh. I'll see how things progress with my rebbi. I plan on speaking to an old school counselor, who I opened up to earlier this year, about opening up to my rebbi.