I feel pretty good . We have a Bar Mitzvah of an einekel coming up right after Chanukah, and work is fine.So far, since my last
episode, I have not gone down the rabbit hole even though the opportunity beckons whenever I am home alone on a Sunday. or in
office .TheCPAP machine is working better but sleeping on my back \which you have to do when the mask is on clearly is something that I have 
to live with. Whenever I feel down or challenged which can happen just when you take a walk around Manhattan during lunchtime, it
is good to remember that GYE has helped me develope strategies and coping mechanisms 

Wow, you're an incredible inspiration!

Oif simchas! So when you sleep better, you are much better at self control? That is what I find for myself. 

What I try to do I situations like you describe in the city is to train myself, to script myself, to react with simcha, thanking Hashem that there are beautiful people in the world, that I have eyes, that I have taava, that I have challenges that I can overcome so it is an opportunity for me to earn huge rewards etc. And if course to look away right away. It gets instinctive beH.
The goal is not to react with strength, not weakness. Victor, not victim. That should help you react better. 
Much hatzlacha!

Last night I felt depressed about my health  I had an accident last fall which required major dental work and I may need a knee replacement which requires very detailed rehabilitative work and I know that the CPAP isn not working and work varies between being busy and boring so with too much time on my hands I went down the rabbit hole last night but I recognize that I can get up in the morning and get the most out of my life with my family and friends and deal with the challenges in my life Without GYE I would not be able to write this 

Yesterday based on a work related difficulty which is causing financial difficulties I almost went down the rabbit hole I clicked where I should not have clicked but that was it I recognize that it was my impulse that took over for that moment and I realize based on another poster’s comments thst I can get up and continue on the right path I would not be writing this without GYEbin my life

What a chizzuk to see this! I'm (relatively) new here and hadn't seen you thread yet. With your current post, with a counter reading 4000 days (WOW!) I got a chance to see the work you've put into this!

While sobering to see the damned YH can rear his head after 4000 days, it's equally chizukkying to see you conquer the beast!!!!!

Thank you!
Muttel

Just went through the thread . an absolutely astonishing amount of  WINS!!!!

Thanks so much for the Chizuk everyone! Since the pandemic I can sense that our office has slowed down and that my boss who is a workaholic is working from home during the morning hours .I have had a lapse or two on a morning and once when I was home on alone but I have always been able to BH pick myself up thanks to GYE .The factors of sleeping on my back thanks to my very effective CPAP and the “less is more “ motto of feminine attire in NYC are factors I have decided to cope with as best as possible as facts of life BH GYE is here ! 

I just read through your entire thread. Your journey of many years is immense but it shows the true power of taking it "One Day At A Time"
Thank you for the chizzuk!!

This week was an unusually tough week as I surfed one news site and almost went completely down the rabbit hole I am still Tahor but I am getting back on my feet and I feel a lot better knowing that I can write my experiences and that I have to be more careful about such triggers Good Shabbos and .Ksivah VChasimah Tovah to everyone! 

Wow that's an intense amount of clean days you have!!!!!!!!!!!

This week I struggledI developed a bad cold missed a day from work have been bored at work and thinking too much about the World Series and the election and all of a sudden I was down the rabbit hole until this afternoon and have learned that the phone is far more dangerous in terms of leading you to the wrong places than a PC in this paperless world 

Yesterday, I had a bad day. I went down the rabbit hole and I feel very similar to an alcoholic who went on a bender. I was alone for most of the day and i realize that I should have gotten out of the house for a good chunk of the morning and afternoon. 

I am worried about my health-I have pain in my knees that prevents me from walking well and I don't want to undergo a surgical procedure that is easy but which has a tough rehab associated with it and I tend to overworry about what is happening in my office when my boss has a laid back posture on such issues. I am just going to follow the advice that was given by GYE in Elul , review the book of R D Twerski ZL ZYA on the issue and keep on going forward-wallowing in guilt won't help but I realized that the Iphone is a far more powerful tool of the Yetzer Hara than the PC with this episode