Shalom, I'm new here. I'm trying to organize my efforts, and this seems like a good place to start. Any help navigating and finding an appropriate forum would be great!

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Hi,

Thanks for responding! I appreciate your concern for me.

So, a little about me:

I'm 25, single, I am a Ba'al Teshuva, I've been observant for close to 3 years, I have been studying in yeshiva in Jerusalem for the past couple years, and I'm moving back to the states this summer. Since I became observant, I've been trying to stop watching pornography. Sadly, I've been unsuccessful so far despite my deep desire to drop the behavior. I've been watching pornography and masterbating since the age of 12, just about half my life, and so i think that the pornography has sufficiently rooted itself deeply within my brain. Unquestionably, I feel a need for my "fix". Thank Gd, nothing catastrophic has occurred in my life from this, i.e. no problems with relationships and nothing beyond getting caught by parents as a teenager (which as a secular teen seems to be expected).

However, I am also sure that this feeling of addiction is not going anywhere without a prolonged concerted effort to uproot the need. Without this effort I feel this is on the road to worsening with unpredictable consequences. Despite the fact that I have webchaver installed and I have all internet accessibility removed from my phone, my Yehtzer hara gets me and I feel a deep desire to search high and low for pornography that goes "under the webchaver radar". Ultimately, what led to my desire to search for help, and my discovery of this website (i'm surprised I never heard of it), was that I got to the point where i couldn't fight the Yehtzer hara and ended up using my roommate's phone to access pornography. This was the last straw for me. I feel that if I cannot control myself to the point that I cannot respect other people's property, then I am clearly not in control of myself.

So, here i am!

GYE seems to be an extremely helpful resource. I appreciate any and all support anyone can offer. I deeply want to fix this before it affects other people. Thank Gd I have no dependents.

Thanks

b'hatzlachah

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