I did some horrible things last night. Instead of sticking to the planned food I ate something that looked really yummy, hot and not too caloric, and I ate a lot of it. I did it because I was extremely tired, I told myself that the food would give me energy. Then at night I didn't have covers and I didn't fix the problem, I woke up really cold, too late to learn. I probably overslept because I was digesting and freezing. I got soft basically.

A train wreck. I need to plan the food and stick to the plan because I don't decide well on the spot.

This morning I'm afraid to eat, I think I need to wait to eat until it's clear that I need it, like when you start a diet all over again.

Sometimes there will be delicious things to eat that show up at the last minute, long after I plan the food for the day in my head. Sometimes I will be sick or exceedingly tired. I cannot manage my weight if I'm not willing to stick to the food plan even when it hurts.

If my diet is mainly fat (under my calorie need) then eating a lot of protein or carbs will make me feel really hungry (tried several times.)

This morning before eating breakfast I took a moment and made a mental plan for what I will eat until tonight.

Shabbos was a train wreck as far as the diet is concerned. It was lots of chained events that began with me treating myself to a few drinks.

I think making alcohol an integral part of the diet is a bad idea because I have a very rigid regimen and I need to stay sharp. It's just not worth it.

I need to stock up on some cold drink I can use to supplement salts a few times on Shabbos because I can't make broth. I found one such drink when I was at work that seemed to do the job.

B"H the scale is not horrible this morning. I don't deserve it ...

Threw away the diet yesterday and stuffed myself. Nothing filled me, as usual, so it set me back and didn't even scratch my itch so to speak.

Now I have to get back on. I think the only way that will work is drink water and put off eating for a while, and then resume eating tiny volumes under my (total daily) calorie need. Else I'm going to fold.

Maybe you should incorporate shnitzel and kugel into your diet 

Maybe you should go on the gye diet. Have some shnitzel and kugel 

Hakolhevel wrote on 19 Nov 2018 22:12:

I think this is one of my favorite posts of all time.

So yesterday I ate very little and also drank very little. It occurred to me that if I stuff myself one day I am then full of water (75%) for the next day. So I just drank coffee for most of the day. Then late in the day I ate small volumes. It was amazing that the scale dropped by something like 7 lbs over 24 hours, basically all water weight.

Just recording this for the future because I will screw up again.

It's amazing that when I'm at work I don't get hunger pangs. I think it's basically because I only have the food I bring with me. I think the hunger is basically a side effect of me thinking about a big hot meal in the back of my head. Nothing big and hot to eat out there, no feeling.

Wierd last post your wrote on the forum (maybe you deleted it already...

You should try a different diet

It's called a תענית דבור

Markz wrote on 22 Nov 2018 17:12:

You are not in a good place. Be careful that this hostility doesn't affect your sexual sobriety.