Hi all!

B''H got to 26 

Hashem should help further!!!!!!!!!!!! 

For those of you that understand Ivrit,
watch this amazing short video of Harav Zamir Cohen about Shmiras Einayim.
gye.vids.io/videos/a49bd1be1e1fe3c72c/

will Succeed Beh wrote on 26 Dec 2016 16:11:

For those of you that don't...

I am still trying to get through that SUPER-LONG over 2-hour shiur of the dead guy who lived.

Someone sent me to look at a black goy screaming at the audience inspirational accountability.

(not the same guy as the always high on marijuana guy in Mark's cute picture).

I listened to the 2nd Rav Simcha Feurman choson lecture series...taking notes.
Wow, he seems to really know his stuff.
And he keeps saying to write him a text or email.
I may just take him up on that, when I have a question.

And I'm still working through the Rav Ben Zion Shafier tyvah talks / The Fight series, 
writing up the main points.

And listening to Rav Fishel Shechter.

I'm in a great mood...cane yirboo! 

LifneiHashem wrote on 26 Dec 2016 12:37:

TThanks, it stinks that I probably won't have an issue till a week from now. It's like that but I'll stay in touch till then

OK, so I can see that I can have control to stop myself from a fall. I was very creative in holding my bed to keep my hands from reaching below the belt and yet used my bed as a hand, but BH no MZL.

I subsequently briefly forgot and used my hand, but quickly remembered.

Time to up the ante and attack the pornography, especially after that dopamine seeking tirade today. If I hit 13 days IYH, 25 minutes on a site meyuchad for pornography is a fall. Going to a site meyuchad for pornography for any amount of time is a slip and I have to post about it.

Boy will I miss Tamar and the rest of the girls. L'shitasi, I don't NEED them if I am not an addict, but I will miss them nevertheless, especially if I think of a new position I want to Google to view

Yosef Tikun HaYesod wrote on 13 Sep 1974 04:05:

Hey I never knew you spoke to Dov couple' times - that's cool

I only did that for a few seconds
I should go back for thirds

Something's weird/wrong, because it says that I wrote that post on the 13th of Septeber, 1974!!!
Man, how time flies! It seems like only yesterday!
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I listened to the whole shiur, all 2 hours and 10 minutes of it. He says: leave all your questions
to the end; I'll answer all of them...but then the video ends right after he finishes speaking, 
without him taking or answering a single question!
It's freaky to hear from a dead guy who came back after making a deal with HaShem,
apparently, to warn everyone to do teshuva and keep mitzvahs!
Heavy stuff. Even if he is just out to be a famous speaker, on the skeptical side, the main message:
do teshuva and keep mitzvahs as a Jew, we are all responsible, the world is not hefker,
there is reward and punishment, HaShem is real, and our actions on this world matter,
is a positive message.

Markz wrote on 20 Dec 2016 06:08:

Mark, who said they spoke to Dov in the post?

Yosef Tikun HaYesod wrote on 27 Dec 2016 06:43:

Yosef,
I posted that video before I finished it, but I also watched the whole thing and enjoyed it and have no reason not to believe him. It helped for some immediate time after, of course I need inspiration to last

Hi Chevreh, How are you all?

I was feeling a bit low the last few days, as the fighting feeling gets relaxes a bit, and the excitement over posting and getting answers is warring down as well (still enjoy it, but there isnt this thrill anymore).

Today i saw the Chizuk email from GYE (those who want to know y i just saw it today - ask quiet...), and the Testimonial was from me, that i posted here & on my Thread, it gave me such Chizuk,
I feel its a sign from Hashem - I'm watching your struggle and i am with you, looking out for you and Shepping Nachas.

LOL

Awesome!
You are doing a great job.

It is somewhat frustrating waiting/hoping for good responses to posts.
But the thing I tell myself is that I am writing them mainly for me,
and that there are many people who will read and gain from them,
even if they never write in and say so.

I'm having another great day. 2 in a row, Boruch HaShem.
It's interesting how every interaction is better when I'm in a good mood.
I've met and talked to a lot of people today, and I feel I even helped cheer other people up,
that's how good I feel. What is going on...and how can I recreate it every day...
or at least way more often?
I don't know. I will have to think about it.
Any ideas?
Someone approached me recently and said: "you look so happy, you have
such a panim meiros, that I came over and wanted to meet you."
Wow!

Due to different time zones and schedules, below picture is the current appearance and noise level of our group. Hence, just like Shua, Yosef, WS, and quiet start our own issues without necessarily responding to everyone else. I will do so again.

I am going to give WS a Karma, because he emailed me that I am so special and it made feel real good. Thank you sir. I have alluded to tragedies in my life and it is so hurtful how frum Rabanim are acting like Reshaim against me. Goyim, I understand corruption. Frum Rabbanim? So hurtful! I have to remember Hashem is in charge. He can save me or choose to allow me to continue living in Gehinom and shine as a shining example in a community where I am starting to be looked down upon. WS complimented me on a similar issue where I am looked down upon for certain chesronos that I have and I have used my experience to help others (unless you meant how Hashem rewarded me for my earlier bitachon)


Photo credit for Beis Hakevaros 196 -- Kotz (no name provided on anonymous forum)

Karma granted to WS.

See the emunah I live with? Due to my Karmas, I have placed 2 different people ahead of me. But I do what is right (giving Karma where deserved) and Hashem will do for me what is right