Oy vey Rabosai....where do I begin.
I've neglected GYE, I've neglected myself. It's been about 8 months and I've been off GYE acting out and being a choteh. Every time I acted out I said "This isn't right, STOP!!!" but it never worked. I filtered up my main computer (not an actual filter but tons of accountability software and random screenshots being emailed to partners) so I can't come on GYE without my partner knowing :'(. I have a tablet with accountability software on it but that only save me from the internet, not the shmutz I find it apps. I would love to join WebChaver but I'm a bochur and can't afford it. I have a second computer that I just fixed up and is currently unfiltered so I have fell many times on it and am now writing this post on it. I need to filter it ASAP. What do you suggest for the tablet? And in general. I would love to have WebChaver, I hear it works on tablets for app management also but can't afford it. Now what?
Rabosai I am back, I will try to find a way to visit GYE more often. Please help a fellow Yid in trouble.

WELCOME BACK!!!!!

What else are you going to do besides the filter?

Welcome back.

Don't be a stranger here.

Perhaps that will help for starters.

b'hatzlachah

I don't know exactly. Suggestions? I was thinking of joining the 12 step phone conferences.

Welcome back troubledbachur!!

It's never too late, you are here now, and NOW can be good regardless of what the past was!!

You can contact VCF they have sponsors for people that don't have the means to pay for filters, and it's a very good filter (they some of the best "filter testers" around.....including me).

But the real question is, what driving you to these things? as the saying goes "lust is not our problem it's our solution", we have a problem and we use lust as the solution, so what are you going to do about those problems?

Joining the calls sounds like a great first step, GO FOR IT!!!!

Keep on Trucking brother!!!! KOMT!!

Agreed!

Join!

you know when?

First available one.

b'hatzlachah

troubledbochur wrote:


Take a hammer and smash it.
הבא להרגך השכם והרגו


Hatzlacha

MT

and then go buy a new one, and smash it...and buy a new one.......

Pidaini wrote:


הוא עצמו מחזר עליו לשורפו מיכל קאכיל מיניה? - פסחים י"א ע"א

WELCOME BACK! I thought webchaver was very cheap, like a few bucks a month. Am I missing something? What do you need the computer/tablet for?

Rabosai,
I am going to call in tonight and hopefully all subsequent night be"H. I reached out to the Tzadikim at WebChaver and they are going to give me a free subscription. (A few dollars, I know but to a bochur with no credit card it makes problems.) I took the other computer out of service but the tablet I use for portability (I don't have a smartphone.)
May Hkb"H have Rachamim on me and see the effort I am making.

I wish you much hatzlacha in everything.

I think the issue of the laptops etc, is use it for work, learning, but not for entertainment that's when the problems start.

Down, down, down.
That's where I went today. I fell. I was acting so strong, felt so positive that this time it would work but, like the other times, I failed. I am feeling sooooo depressed. How am I going to ever get through this?? I know, think about it one day at a time but how? There is a limit to how much you can tell yourself, the yetzer hara is going to argue!

I'm at my wits end.I stayed away from porn but, like I said earlier, there is no filter for your body, specifically m*****. It was late, I was stressed. I know I should have gone to sleep earlier but I get home at around 7 and its finals season...I keep late hours. A dangerous thing in my case but what should I do? I don't have a plan, I don't know what a plan is. If anyone can help me make one please direct message me when is a good time and we can chat together.

I want to win but I feel I'm all talk no action.

At least you can write in your post that you reached out to someone and tried to prevent the fall.
Have you done that before?
If not, that is a step in the right direction.

The others will chime in and say: Hey! Get back on the @#$%in' truck you silly goose.
so what you fell?
Fell shmell!
And that's all true and good.

Don't make yourself crazy with questions: What am I gonna do different tomorrow night?

Decide for right now that you are unable to stop yourself....then ask God to help you for this moment.....and then.....that's it....that's all you need to do right now.

Laylah tov

L'hitra'ot amigo.

cordnoy wrote:


Pidaini is always asking everyone "WHAT'S YOUR PLAN OF ACTION?? WHAT WILL YOU DO DIFFERENTLY??!
Pidaini Do you disagree with CORDNOYon this point???