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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 24 Sep 2015 19:33 #264577

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ITS THE SAME AS SHIVISI HASHEM LENEGDI TAMID........TO *VECHATOSI LENEGDI TAMID*

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 11 Oct 2015 16:13 #265588

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Help! I'm going to fall, though I have a filter I'm searching for enticing things to look at. Please help me get out of this!! I'm 54 days clean. I don't want to ruin it, also I know that falling will ruin my life again. Life has been good without falling. I want it to stay that way!! Please someone help me out of this!!

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 11 Oct 2015 16:21 #265591

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:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!

please checkout the things I wrote last nite + my signature, and pls share what worked for you
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 11 Oct 2015 16:23 #265592

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Youtube is probably the not the best place to visit at this time. How about making a call to someone?
I am happy to speak on the phone. Please email me at dms1234ongye@gmail.com

My name is Daniel, I go to face to face meetings and I work the 12 steps with a sponsor. 

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 11 Oct 2015 16:32 #265594

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The YouTube idea was only to wake- shake-up someone that's there already.

Agreed, it's not the most preferred method
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 12 Oct 2015 20:03 #265723

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I hope you were able to stop yourself

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 30 Dec 2015 18:10 #272856

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help - ive been sober for at least 90 days, but i feel like looking at innapropriate stuff and i just need some sense talked into me. it's scary, i thought i got rid of this thing and i just felt a powerfull urge to look.

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 30 Dec 2015 18:13 #272858

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Oh no. I feel like looking too

1- My favorite quick fix
2- Post what tools you have begun, perhaps those can help now.
3- You go to B&H!! Brilliant Humor section, and see if you find anything interesting there. No pressure - you don't have to laugh at every joke found there, Its funny - I don't either.
4- Take a break, listen to some music or the iPhone song
5- Chat with a friend / sponsor who knows about the addiction
6- Checkout my signature
7 - You need approval from one of the guys. You wanna take drugs? Don't do it!! Want to go to some dirty website? Just post it HERE first.
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Last Edit: 30 Dec 2015 18:14 by Markz.

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 30 Dec 2015 20:49 #272869

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Philwantstoquit wrote:
help - ive been sober for at least 90 days, but i feel like looking at innapropriate stuff and i just need some sense talked into me. it's scary, i thought i got rid of this thing and i just felt a powerfull urge to look.
If sense was all it took, we wouldn't be in this mess. Sense can help us stay away from triggers, but is not usually very helpful once under attack.

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 30 Dec 2015 23:36 #272888

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gibbor120 wrote:
Philwantstoquit wrote:
help - ive been sober for at least 90 days, but i feel like looking at innapropriate stuff and i just need some sense talked into me. it's scary, i thought i got rid of this thing and i just felt a powerfull urge to look.
If sense was all it took, we wouldn't be in this mess. Sense can help us stay away from triggers, but is not usually very helpful once under attack.



I know exactly what you mean. I fell the same way. I had 397 days and I fell.

So let's play out this thing here. Right now you are in a rut of sorts, lusting and want to/don't want to engage in the filth. If you do, you fall, you have an immediate release of this tension but only to be filled with a depression the likes of which will make you feel like the famine in Mitzraim. The bad years were so bad they erase all the good feelings you had with your wonderful 90 days of sweet success.
The guys will gather around and give you support oh yes, but that will be a poor lame imitation of the euphoria you felt when you had 90 successive days of true accomplishment.

If G-d forbid you fell you would make various tweaks in your program. You would be more actively engaged in getting the support you need so that this deep-seated grief would never ever occur again.

Buddy - do those things now!!!

And yes daven - sincere davening that what you promised yourself( remember the desperation and sincerity you had) 90 beautiful days ago, will truly be forever.

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 19 Jan 2016 23:58 #274916

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I know what your thinking, what does recovery have to do with a rainbow?

Life is like a rainbow it has its ups and downs, its brights and darks. but you will always reach the pot of gold at the end. In order to build your wonderful rainbow of life you need to study a rainbow and take the lessons it provides.

Each color, starting from the bottom, is neat and carefully placed right next to the other. When all stacked and suspended in mid air you have a gorgeous rainbow. The colors are our accomplishments, if you want to grow you need to focus on one color at a time. Start with the bottom and put all your focus and energy into one struggle. One area at a time. Once you painted one color make another until you slowly build a breath taking rainbow. What happens when we try to paint the green blue red orange all at once? A mess. Small steps in ONE AREA and then solidify and keep going.

If your on this website you struggle in the area of "kedusha". The holy books refer to this issue as Midas Hayesod, the foundation of everything, the foundation of your life, the foundation of your rainbow. The first color to paint. Focus all your energy on this battle, don't worry about your other issues, you'll get there, now we are focusing on our very yesod, our foundation. When God finished destroying the generation of the Mabul, who sinned severely in shemirat habrit and promiscuous behavior, he put up a rainbow. I think the message is clear: if you want to grow and overcome this challenge of Taavat Nashim, look at the rainbow my people, one color at a time..

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 20 Jan 2016 00:02 #274921

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Apparently you are looking for more input than how to prevent a fall - please check your personal thread you recently started, and many other guys will be there soon to assist you with boosting your truck
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 25 Jan 2016 14:26 #275404

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This is being moved here from my "Free Towing" thread

Towing - I'm about to fall

ABOUT TO FALL?
.....
1- My favorite quick fix
2- Post what tools you have begun, perhaps those can help now.
3- You go to B&H!! Brilliant Humor section, and see if you find anything interesting there. No pressure - you don't have to laugh at every joke found there, Its funny - I don't either.
4- Take a break, listen to some music or the iPhone song
5- Chat with a friend / sponsor who knows about the addiction
6- Checkout my signature
7 - You need approval from one of the guys. You wanna take drugs? Don't do it!! Want to go to some dirty website? Just post it HERE first.
My Story---------Dov Quotes




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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 29 Jan 2016 05:07 #275913

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Mind not clear right now but will try to write..

I got past 90 days but I think because I got engaged.

I fell once after that

I need guidance for how to deal with this at the stage of life I am at now

I have a Iphone and very frustrating trying to get it restricted with out me being able to get the password and also keep finding ways around the restrictions.

My phone needed updates and today I made the restrictions a little more lax after bringing phone to person with password.

I got sucked into the excitement of trying to get around the newly laxed restrictions and was successful.

I feel extremely triggered and can't think. What has gotten into me?? What type of sicko gets off the phone with his Kalla and has to deal with this now?? I can't fall!! it will kill me

Is it possible to have a smartphone? I just need whatsapp... this is giving me too much stress.

I am a Chosson. I was clean for a month and a half before I even started dating. A true success. But after that I think only because dated and engaged to first girl. Am I a sicko? I need to deal with this before marriage..

Sorry for random thoughts but I read this is the thread for emergencies and I am about to fall and I feel if I do I will fall hard this time and this is not the time to do so. Can't think clearly either.
Shmiras HaChaim:
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 29 Jan 2016 05:29 #275916

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I anyone there? or am I not coherent enough for anyone? Or am I too much of a sicko to even help?
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