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MosheW wrote today: Personal Count: 90 DAYS!!!!! My dear friends, the road has many forks, choices, choices, and more choices... Without a good "GPS" i.e. G-d, P rogram (12 steps),S upport (a good chevra, posting on the forum, etc.) it will be almost impossible to make it...

It means so much to me to be part of the GYE community; I think I am bringing much joy and inspiration to my daily SA meeting because of how good I feel inside to be sharing my journey of recovery with such holy and special Jews. Even as I write this, I thank Hashem for s...

I just wanted to mention that even though I had a fall yesterday after 70 days clean (due to some depression), I feel only mild urges to go back into the whole destructive cycle. I used to "binge" whenever I fell, but this time is much better.So I can really see how the 9...

Till the age of 18 I was masturbating and viewing porn 5-6 times a day. I had no idea what I was even doing to myself, I never thought it was that bad. By 18 I came to realize the severity of my actions and I got on the roller coaster of Teshuva and depression. I got marr...

What is it that I, Silentbattle, Tomim, Trying and Momo have in common? What makes them so important to me? Why do I love them? We are so very different in so many ways... What makes GYE-ers great is not that we all share common backgrounds, common hashkafa, common sense ...

I've been seeing the therapist (that you suggested) for a while; B"H we have a good repertoire and have been dealing a lot with core issues. We've spoke about acting out and the like; he's been on top of it and we've been using both hypnosis and practical methods. B"H I a...

I was completely addicted to p**n. Nobody knew. My wife and I went to our local Rav regarding how to deal with issues that every couple deals with. In front of them both, I admitted to looking at p**n. The Rav told my wife how lucky she was and how impressed he was that I...

I came on this site looking for help, half expecting either "yeshivishe raid" which won't have the slightest effect on my life, or mystical hallucinations about how you need to balance all the energetic forces within you - using love for nature. Instead, what I found was ...

A while ago, a prestigious Mechanech wrote us once for help: Dear GUE, Sorry For anonymity but it would be a Chillul Hashem to show my real face. I am a prestigious mechanech and respected marriage counselor. I helped a lot of Bachurim and couples in their own sexual pro...

There's a thin line between entertainment and war... The little kiss between the 15 year old's on the innocent "Disney movies" today, is not so innocent... It's a very important part of lust's attack on us... It's where we are taught - from the youngest age - that this st...

"Silentbattle" writes on the forum: One thing I love about this site is that it deals with different levels of addiction, different types (levels) of aveiros - but everyone helps each grow! Yeah, it could be easy for every person in their own way to look at others and bre...

Yosef Writes: My name is Yosef. I posted on this forum only one time in the past, more than 6 months ago. At that time, I also reached out to someone here on the forum, but not believing that he would ever answer my PM (private messages), I never checked my messages - unt...

It seems weird that almost three weeks clean have passed. I spent the last day or so forcing myself find other outlets for the time I spent. The best distraction has actually been working. I have been working like a mad man. I used to sit at my desk and figure out what I ...

I've been meaning to write in for a while now and say thank you. I have been "clean" since a few days before Rosh Chodesh Elul (close to 4 months). My story is, I'm sure, not unique. I have tried over time to control myself, sometimes succeeding for one or two months, but...

In all honesty, I feel like you guys have given me a new life here... I was once so sick and tired of seeing myself in the mirror... "that hypocrite, loser, no-life"... But now I can continue living without feeling like a constant loser... Where once I would look back on ...

Most of my friends are married and/or living in a different state/country. This is a major part of my problem. Honestly, the reason I got involved in the aveiros I did was because I needed to feel like I was connecting to something; I wanted to feel less alone.And that's ...

Hey guys, today is day 56 clean. I can't believe how good you made me feel, all of you. I feel like a drunkie these days, like I had at least a full gallon of Vodka. I'm in a great mood, I'm being mechazek everyone, I pray much deeper, I feel just happy to be a Jew and to...

I am a yungerman who has been looking at re'ios assuros even before I knew that I shouldn't be looking at them. I was doing the ma'aseh before I knew that it is an aveira, r"l. I am married now with a few children, Boruch Hashem, and have been struggling with the yetzer h...