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I was going to say that I hate being an addict. But then I thought of something "habib" recently told me. You know those people who walk down the street; the people who daven 3 times a day, wear the clothes, walk the walk, talk the talk, but you just know they do...

Last night was very, very tough. My wife had to go out shopping, which would have been a great time for me to act out previously. I won't say I wasn't tempted, but I looked at my personal printout of my 90 day chart and ...

Chaza"l say that the Schach should be from "Pesoles Goren Ve'Yakev". Why do Chazal use the Lashon of "Pesoles", couldn't they have found a nicer way to describe the material we use for this holy Mitzva? Says the Alter Sadigerer Rebbe ...

The program (12-Step) way of looking at the whole business, is actually different than what we are used to. It is even different from what normal people without these problems are used to. The program is not about answering questions of how to beat the desire. It is not a...

I arrived at day 90 on the second day of Sukkos and I would like to now share some sentiments about what this organization has meant to me upon reaching my initial goal. I also want to get my sights clear on the next goal and join a ...

For the first time in many years, I just took some time to learn this afternoon in the Sukkah and just enjoy this mitzvah. I was able to identify with my feelings for the first time in many years. Es chatai ani mazkir hayom... I rememb...

It seems that for me and a lot of people on the forum, the days after yom Kippur were especially hard. But why? Shouldn't they be easy for us? At least for a few days till Y"K wears off! Why were we falling or having such urges to ...

Before Yom-Kippur, some people were discussing on the forum how they think their Yom-Kippur will be, based on where they are "holding" in their struggle, and whether they feel inspired or not. Dov posted the following importan...

The GYE forum is virtual land... the land of the fake. All you guys here are not people, you are algorithms... it's all 1s and 0s, right? The real world is people in $1500 suits and the New York Post at every...

Chazal call the first day of Sukkos, "Rishon l'Cheshbon Ha'avonos - the first day for an accounting of sins". This cannot simply mean that we're too busy to sin before then, because that's not necessarily true and, furthermore, that's not w...

Question of the Week: Why do we celebrate the festival of Sukkos immediately after Yom Kippur? Wouldn't it be better to space out these festivals? Or is there some connection between fasting on Yom Kippur and eating in an outdoor hut f...

"X-addict" posted on our forum 4 months priviously: Hello, regards from Stamford Hill. I'm 20 years old and have a computer with internet access in my room. I used to be a crazy addict, seriously now, I was, like, the king of p**n, ...

How do we proclaim Hashem's majesty? Do we walk down Mea Shearim and announce on a Speakerphone: "Yehudim Yekarim!! Listen up! Hashem is the King!" That's one way. Maybe. But there is another way. A more global way. Allow me to share the following famous...

During Slichos, I struggled a bit with reconciling a positive frame of mind with emotion about how bad I've been. Everybody here (on the forum) was helpful in me getting past that. Thank you. Rosh Hashana was good, I focused on being M...

I thought about all the forum people that I could remember during shacharis this Yom Kippur. It was the best part, as far as I am concerned. It's funny, but there is only one tefillah during which I get a "second wind" and take a ...

Momo often posts on the forum a summary of Duvid Chaim's daily calls (read all the summaries over here). Here is Momo's summary from the last call of Duvid Chaim's cycle, which ended before Yom Kippur. Being the la...

Chevra, How many of you are asking yourself this question? After all, we just completed 40 Days of Teshuva; first kicking off the process of "return" at the beginning of Elul, followed by the humbling experience of Coronating the ...

On Erev Yom Kippur "Trying" posted: This is very hard for me to say, since I'm dead embarrassed. But secrecy keeps strengthening the addiction, so here goes. I fell again last night. Yes, I know it's Erev Yom Kippur. I don't know how I...