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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 19 Nov 2024 22:04 #425401

stopsurvivingstartliving Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 439 Karma: 32	Another day Clean! Today came with some obstacles. Something triggered me a few hours ago and I really wanted to act out, BH I made it till now clean. I won't say I won because I simply had no access to act out to my urges. But thank God I am still clean. PS Knowing myself I have a while left to my night so I hope to finish it clean!
	SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.] Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread) Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com. My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 19 Nov 2024 22:24 #425402

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 19 Nov 2024 22:04:

Another day Clean!

Today came with some obstacles. Something triggered me a few hours ago and I really wanted to act out, BH I made it till now clean. I won't say I won because I simply had no access to act out to my urges. But thank God I am still clean.

PS Knowing myself I have a while left to my night so I hope to finish it clean!

Dude. Don't negate your wins. You are awesome!

Unless you've somehow removed your hands, mind, and male organ, you had access to act out. You chose not to. That is amazing!

Keep on surviving and living and trucking!
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Last Edit: 19 Nov 2024 22:24 by chosemyshem.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 19 Nov 2024 22:37 #425404

stopsurvivingstartliving
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chosemyshem wrote on 19 Nov 2024 22:24:

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 19 Nov 2024 22:04:

Dude. Don't negate your wins. You are awesome!

Unless you've somehow removed your hands, mind, and male organ, you had access to act out. You chose not to. That is amazing!

Keep on surviving and living and trucking!
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Sent from amavakesh via Kotzk

Truth is I wasn't down to masturbate so there goes your post. Sorry.

SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.]
Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread)

Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com.
My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 21 Nov 2024 00:11 #425527

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Still Clean thank God!

I had very strong urges to do something I've never done and would have been crossing a red line of mine. I spoke it out with an amazing GYE'er and after a long and straightforward conversation he said something that really hit me. He said along the following lines, if you do this thing you are putting yourself in a position that will make your whole marriage hard. You will never be able to face your wife and truly feel she is mine and my only.

I am having a hard time putting it down on paper but when he told it to me it really hit home. Thank you!

Have a good night.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 22 Nov 2024 01:50 #425613

stopsurvivingstartliving Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 439 Karma: 32	Day 15 Clean! Thank God I didn't have any of those feelings to do bad things today.
	SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.] Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread) Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com. My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 22 Nov 2024 02:18 #425615

odyossefchai Current streak: 216 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 331 Karma: 15	Amazing!!! Don't stop at 15. You got this.
	I didn't believe I could be clean Until I actually got clean. If I can do it, you can too! 845 445 9131 odyossefchai613@gmail.com

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 22 Nov 2024 06:07 #425627

simchastorah Current streak: 152 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 511 Karma: 19	stopsurvivingstartliving is an amazing guy. The honesty and courage just come shining through the posts.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 24 Nov 2024 01:39 #425671

stopsurvivingstartliving Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 439 Karma: 32	Friday and Shabbos Clean! Baruch Hashem!
	SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.] Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread) Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com. My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 25 Nov 2024 00:18 #425720

stopsurvivingstartliving Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 439 Karma: 32	Today was Clean! Life sometime gets boring and rough and you can feel all of your chiyus zapped out of you. Whateva
	SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.] Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread) Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com. My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 25 Nov 2024 23:34 #425794

stopsurvivingstartliving Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 439 Karma: 32	Day 19 Clean! I made it past CHAI days! Epic!
	SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.] Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread) Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com. My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 27 Nov 2024 13:44 #425916

stopsurvivingstartliving Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 439 Karma: 32	Had a rough last few hours, did a lot of filter poking and managed to see a few seconds of porn. I am not counting it as a fall. I am still in middle of this episode but I hope God helps me make it through clean because I don't want to.
	SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.] Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread) Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com. My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 27 Nov 2024 19:21 #425944

stopsurvivingstartliving Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 439 Karma: 32	So an update of my "episode" is: I masturbated. Felt pretty darn stupid with myself. I got out but won't say it's over. Now I have to deal with the post fall urges, not too confident I am gonna make it.
	SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.] Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread) Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com. My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 27 Nov 2024 19:37 #425947

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 27 Nov 2024 19:21:

So an update of my "episode" is: I masturbated. Felt pretty darn stupid with myself. I got out but won't say it's over. Now I have to deal with the post fall urges, not too confident I am gonna make it.

My Brother, that must be rough.
I'm here for you Friend.

Today is yesterday's tomorrow.
The yetzarim a person has the most trouble dealing with are his most powerful God-given tools for developing his potential and achieving shleimus.
It doesn't matter how big the number is, only that today it is going up by one.

Please feel free to reach out. I'd appreciate connecting with you (via GYE, email, or phone - whatever floats your boat)
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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 27 Nov 2024 21:12 #425954

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 27 Nov 2024 19:21:

Sorry to hear, brotha, it's tough.

You're resilient and you'll stand up, I know.

You know where to find me (and don't take no for an answer!!!).

Looking forward to get to know you better!

Email me @ yiftach1609@gmail.com or call/text 347-201-4989 (Google voice)

My story is unfolding here

"יפתח ה' לך את אוצרו הטוב"

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 27 Nov 2024 21:31 #425956

stopsurvivingstartliving Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 439 Karma: 32	You fall down (twice), you get back up. Seemingly we sometimes have to fall twice to get back up. To the "Eyes" out there looking after me, I am sorry I let you down, though this time I am more confident to make it through the night, bez''h. @yiftach do you really not take no for an answer? What can I get you?
	SSSL's Story (Google Doc) [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.] Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread) Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com. My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.