Day 2

Urges today, they will pass.
I don't feel like I have to write about it every time anymore. 
the only reason I wrote about this one was because it felt like i was at the choice point again and made a better decision to let go.

Put inspiration into action, and it lasts longer.

Alright after a long day of work ( Manual labor) i find I have urges diffrent than this morning. This morning was "I saw somthing and moved on with my day" this is diffrent. I think after a hard day of work their is a feeling of I earned rest and relaxation and that prompts the urges. Seeing as I fell around this time last time this could have played a role in my last fall.  Coupled with the openness of a new schedule. 
My plan is to go to learn after work but I am still working out the schedule and wanted to note the urges.

edit: the feeling of i earned some relaxation coupled with the entertaining of the idea of an option to give in is what caused me to fall last time and I still feel it here now.

Looking for advice.
I know people say go for a jog break a sweat but I did that all dsy and don't fancy the idea of sweating more.

What, besides watching, recharges your battery? If you don't know, maybe time to try a few new things. 

notezy wrote on 29 May 2024 13:34:

So relax. What do you enjoy that's not p&m and/or a gateway to that?
A full day of hard work followed by a powerful night seder and exhaustedly crashing into bed is an amazing way to stay clean and out of all sorts of trouble. But it's totally fine to want to chill after work. You know what you enjoy and what types of activities you need to stay away from. I have full confidence that you can pick a good way of relaxing.

I had another fall 
I feel like I am in a new battlground I wasn't expecting this.
I have to recollect myself and make a new plan.

notezy wrote on 29 May 2024 15:01:

That's hard brother. We're here for you and impressed  you're already thinking about what you need to do. You'll get this!

Fell again this morning.

המה כרעו ונפלו ואנחנו קמנו ונתעודד"They fall and stay down, but we rise up and overcome."
Keep it up we’re with you 

Going to keep updating about falls but might not Update every day my progress I'll still be keeping track for myself...
going to play out the new week and see where I go for now that's my plan.
I stayed clean this shabbos and their were some challenges.

Had a fall last night 

Finished chapter 26 of TBOTG.

Today I will beat that battle I fell at last week simply because I know the battle is coming this time after work. And strengthening myself at this moment my will and desire to be greater then this test.

I had a fall at the end of the night.