That’s pretty darn sad, Twisted…your final farewell, and your general painfilled, morbid posts somehow reminded me of this song…
I've been tryin' so hard to survive
Sometimes I think that I wanna die
I feel so ……. guilty 'cause God, I'm so lucky to live my life
So I keep all the pain to myself
Losin' faith, but nobody can tell
Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me
So I pretend I'm fine
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh
If you only knew
I wish I was somebody else
I'm constantly overwhelmed
Now I'm falling again, gettin' drunk with some friends
It's a silent cry for help
I wanna get better, I want you to know
That I can't do this on my own
Take me outta this hell
Oh, somebody help
Take me outta this hell
Oh, I'm not myself
I wanna tell you what my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry, but I want to
Oh, if you only knew
Au revoir, my Twisted friend. Sad that I won’t ever see you here again…
Wishing you a ton of clarity and success in all your endeavors…
-YKW