I'm starting now my 90 days, I have marked today as first clean day although it was not a full clean day. That is because there was no option to make the first day tomorrow (Aug. 22). I think I'll have to work with "miktzas hayom k'kuloi" for my first day, because if I don't start now I don't know if I'll ever start. What do you guys think?

BTW, I'm new to this, I started to do the checklist on my personal page 3 weeks ago and I want to start 90 days now.

Thank you 

Welcome brother ;-)

What do I think?
Come back here in 24hr and we'll take it from there

Hi, I'm back b"h, it's almost 24 hours.

Cool!

So apparently you installed filters already (and didn't break them) right?

Actually didn't yet, I just didn't use my smartphone cuz the month ran out. I promised myself that I won't pay for another month before I install a good filter (thru sinun).

I'm now on my work computer and I don't have access to any wifi.

Hope4debetter wrote on 22 Aug 2017 22:42:

And if you had wifi... ?

If I had i would act out again most probably. Now I need to go a long way to get wifi and I only want to do that when I'm ready to put on filter right away and have some kind of support meanwhile to assure that I don't stumble those few minutes.

BTW, according to what I have read here ( guardyoureyes.com/articles/addiction-recovery/item/understanding-triggers-in-pornography-recovery?category_id=528 ) I also need to focus on my main triggers, which are my struggles in everyday life (not related to any sexual exposure) and my Complex-PTSD. For instance: now on the moment I am going through a hard time with some people (the emotional flashback I'm experiencing makes it way more tougher to survive, see www.pete-walker.com for a better understanding of emotional fglashbacks and Coplex-PTSD, it's so much different than PTSD and people confuse those 2) and I B"h have some tools to manage those so I'm less tempted to act out. I still have the temptation to do it and not even with my smartphone. There's enough ways to do it when I feel the huge need to escape and I wouldn't necessarily need a connection to internet for that.

Hope4debetter wrote on 23 Aug 2017 16:54:

Sounds like you're on a roll

KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!

Markz wrote on 23 Aug 2017 17:43:

Thank you brother!!!!

A therapist sounds like a great idea!