Ihavestrength wrote on 10 Jul 2017 07:51:

This is why I don't use covenanteyes mobile app

Its a cover upp

I use safari with white lists and you can do to and save a penny at the same time

Day 1

No, I didn't fall thank G-d. I've just realized it's way healthier for me to live one day at a time. When I'm trying to reach a number of certain days it brings me to despair. How can I give up lust for that long? The answer is that I probably can't. However, to give up lust just for today I can usually (with G-ds help) handle. If I'm going for a certain number, it turns into one big white knuckling fest. So no more checking off days on the calender for me. I'll get there (to whatever big number it will be) when i get there.

P.S I restricted my phone and made it lust proof because of my last fall, so I probably won't be able to post daily.

Ihavestrength wrote on 12 Jul 2017 14:35:

I support "One day at a time." 

Agreed, ODAAT!!!! is the best way to make something stick. (especially change)
OneDayAtATime  !b'Simcha!withExcitement!withStrenght!withThanks



Hatzlacha Rabba!

Fell with P. Didn't do M thank g-d. Seems like no phone restriction is strong enough for me. Maybe that doesn't work for me. Perhaps I need to start calls?

Phone calls sound like a great start!

email me at growstrong613 @ gmail and i will send you my number

GrowStrong wrote on 19 Jul 2017 20:38:

I meant phone conferences  

My baby steps: 1.Read chizuk emails every day for a week. 2. Call into at phone conference tomm. 

#LittleBigSteps

Ihavestrength wrote on 19 Jul 2017 17:30:

What type of phone? On iPhones you can really lock up everything should you do choose. 

Workingguy wrote on 19 Jul 2017 23:09:

Android. I don't think restrictions are my solution. In fact, only when I totally restricted my phone did I develop an urge to test my "hacking abilities". I think me going for total restriction was a vain hope that my problem is that simple. 

P.S I have covenant eyes with a filter. So I'm not leaving myself total freedom. Unfortunately, due to trying to block everything, I found out how to get past it, ironically. I wanted to see if I was "safe", as crazy as that sounds. I guess I've become very scared of this addiction. Sorta learned helplessness. 

I've heard people share that in the past. I have a friend who doesn't have a filter because he knew it would just make him want to get past it. I don't have a filter under the guidance of my Sponsor.

Ihavestrength wrote on 19 Jul 2017 23:45:

I had that same experience of trying to game the filter and it drove me crazy. Every time I got a new filter it drove me crazy. Totally understandable 

Day 1: B"H, I had a good and productive day. I also walked tons and got alot of sun. I think both of these things did me good. I read the daily chizuk email. I tried calling into duvid chaims call, but was unsuccessful due to location restrictions (yes, I know they have numbers for every country). It seems I'll have to wait till I get home to start calling in. 

A random thought: We all have things in our life that we want to be different. I believe most of us have a true desire to change these things.

This desire however, is not enough. It is only the beginning. You must act on that desire by taking real steps. How many consistent/daily recovery actions have you been taking in the past month? The answer to this question gave me some clarity as to why I haven't been so successful lately.

You can't will this problem away. As simple as this sounds, I think many of us forget this. We overestimate the value of our desire to change/stop and underestimate the power of daily actions of recovery (i.e reading the daily chizuk EVERYDAY).