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Scientific studies show that it takes 90 days to break an addictive pattern in the mind. Start your own Log of your journey to 90 days! Post here to update us on your status and to give each other chizuk to stay strong!

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Re: My 90-Day Journey 11 Mar 2015 16:06 #250328

Shmeichel Current streak: 980 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Smiling to YOU! Posts: 256 Karma: 18	correct! today is my rotten lemon
	when going forward gets tough, its merely a sign that you are going uphill, just give more gas put your sobriety first; before your wife, before your kids, before your avodas HaTorah (except for the 3 that are יעבור ואל יהרג) Without sobriety you won't have any of those things!

Re: My 90-Day Journey 13 Mar 2015 14:25 #250448

TalmidChaim OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 405 Karma: 22	Shmeichel wrote: correct! today is my rotten lemon Haha!
	0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness. Lo ba-shamayim hi Mellow out.

Re: My 90-Day Journey 13 Mar 2015 14:26 #250449

TalmidChaim OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 405 Karma: 22	This might go without saying, but wow is it easy to stay focused, determined and full of optimism shortly after you act out. But as the days wear on, and the temptation builds, it just gets harder and harder.
	0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness. Lo ba-shamayim hi Mellow out.

Re: My 90-Day Journey 13 Mar 2015 16:21 #250458

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TalmidChaim wrote:

This might go without saying, but wow is it easy to stay focused, determined and full of optimism shortly after you act out. But as the days wear on, and the temptation builds, it just gets harder and harder.

So stay connected.
The group was just askin' about you.

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Re: My 90-Day Journey 15 Mar 2015 09:58 #250516

TalmidChaim OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 405 Karma: 22	Glad to be a part of it, Cordnoy. I'll come by again.
	0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness. Lo ba-shamayim hi Mellow out.

Re: My 90-Day Journey 15 Mar 2015 14:43 #250533

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lookin' forward....

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Re: My 90-Day Journey 16 Mar 2015 14:33 #250610

TalmidChaim OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 405 Karma: 22	Working on another clean day. I'm going to use the 90-day count, but obsess less about it. I could see it distracting me from some fundamental recovery precepts.
	0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness. Lo ba-shamayim hi Mellow out.

Re: My 90-Day Journey 23 Mar 2015 01:42 #251047

TalmidChaim OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 405 Karma: 22	I'm at seven days, working on Day 8. I'm reading more about addiction and really taking the "homework" (i.e., self work) aspect of recovery a lot, a lot more seriously now. I'm reading the SA White Book and ordered The Light of Ephraim to kind of get some inspiration. Mostly, I'm really trying to actualize this whole "Letting go and letting G-d" mentality. It's definitely a revelation.
	0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness. Lo ba-shamayim hi Mellow out.

Re: My 90-Day Journey 23 Mar 2015 03:23 #251051

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Sounds good, keep it up!

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Re: My 90-Day Journey 23 Mar 2015 20:49 #251096

shlomo613 Current streak: 32 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 433 Karma: 27	Hi talmid chayim, I'm new to using this sites stuff so not sure you got it, or anyway just to let you know that I private messaged you so check your messages. Please don't bite me! Shlomo
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Re: My 90-Day Journey 24 Mar 2015 13:31 #251150

TalmidChaim OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 405 Karma: 22	Haha. Why would I be annoyed? I'll check it now. Thanks for writing!
	0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness. Lo ba-shamayim hi Mellow out.

Re: My 90-Day Journey 27 Mar 2015 13:33 #251372

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I had a fall after 11 days yesterday. That was my second longest streak so far, so I was doing something right. Obviously, though, I was doing some things incorrectly too.

When a temptation appeared, I really tried to admit to myself and HaShem that I wanted to act out. I then asked HaShem to take the desire away. Believe it or not, this was the first time I explicitly said this in the face of desire. It worked a few times, but maybe my sincerity just wasn't there when I gave in to temptation. I don't know.

But I'm committed to staying clean now and looking forward to letting HaShem see me through past 11 days, past 30 days, past 90 days, and on and on, and on and on.

0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness.

Lo ba-shamayim hi

Mellow out.

Re: My 90-Day Journey 27 Mar 2015 14:46 #251378

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We only have today! You sound well. Thanks for your honesty.

Re: My 90-Day Journey 27 Mar 2015 15:16 #251383

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Sorry to hear of your fall.

But look at the progress you're making. you're on the right path, it's a process and it takes time and effort. And yeah i know what you mean about wondering about my sincerity i do that all the time. it's like this little voice in my head keeps asking "Do you really mean that?". But we have to just say it anyway and then make the right choice for right now. Actions and positive self-reinforcement will lead to genuine feelings in time.

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"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
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Re: My 90-Day Journey 27 Mar 2015 17:33 #251398

SamJoe Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Senior Boarder Posts: 50 Karma: 6	BTW I would like to mention that my biggest fear NOW would be to have a fall, it would be really hard to accept but now that I see your honesty I feel more comfortable with the idea, thanks alot! Hatzlacha!