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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 03:43 #229684

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OMG!

You guys ruined the whole serious vibe that I built up on this thread... :'(

It'll never be the same... :'(

You guys strukked the serious out of it,

Can I get this thread moved to the jhf section?

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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 04:53 #229687

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Inna! Where's the picture of you inna strukkes? am I allowed to put it up?
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 06:21 #229693

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On behalf of the moderators here, I would like to say the following:

ugabugaboo

Have a very nice day.
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 08:31 #229696

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Dov wrote:
ugabugaboo


Is that the latest model? (I was sure they were gonna come out with the GIRAFFE next )
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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 11:44 #229702

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I hate to break up the mood here.

I fell.

After a year of being clean.A real year of being clean, not holding my breath, I fell.

I really don't want to write this but if I'm not going to be honest then it's going to happen again.I'm going to analyze the fall, learn from it and KOT.(then maybe go to sleep since it's 3:30 a.m.)

What I think caused the fall:
1)I'm going through a rough time in my life now, and it doesn't look like it's going to stop anytime soon
2)I forgot to use the tools I learnt to look at this time in a positive light
3)My defenses were lowered by the easy time I had in Israel without internet or too much pritzus.
4)I slipped a few times since I got home and didn't tell anyone (probably because,)
5)I got a bit overconfident, not so much in the way of thinking I can't possibly fall but believing that since I've been clean for so long then I don't need to take as many precautions as I used to

What I plan on doing:
1)Looking at life in a positive light again
2)Remember how I'm just one click away from falling no matter how long I'm clean for
3)Tell someone I slipped right after i do
4)And forget the fall and KOT.

Falling was just as fun as I remembered but being clean was, and is, way more enjoyable.

Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 15:30 #229706

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hi IAS!

first of all great grip of yourself for right after a fall.

i would usually be in a bad mood or just blurry and not be able to think so clearly.

bottom line is that all the guys who fell after long streaks all say there is a very big eye opener that comes from these kind of falls, it's telling us how much we still have to work on even if we thought that being clean was everything there is alot more to do and learn (speaking from my own expierence)

so brush it of and start trucking forward.

remember to keep on cleaning for pesach!

Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 18:31 #229708

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sorry to hear, buddy.
your attitude is great.
keep on trucking, strukking but under no circumstances are you to be caught 'brukking' (until Achron shel pesach at least).

Falling was just as fun as I remembered but being clean was, and is, way more enjoyable.
thats a keeper!
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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 19:19 #229711

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Sorry to hear about your fall. I also had falls after long streaks (not quite a year but many months) and I understand the feelings of disappointment and frustration with yourself at having "failed". But look at the bright side, you had a WHOLE YEAR clean! You're a Monstuh Trucker!! KUTGW!!!




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Dov wrote:
ugabugaboo


Is that the latest model? (I was sure they were gonna come out with the GIRAFFE next )


What happens when you cross Uggs and Bugaboos? You get this: http://www.columbia.com/Bugaboot/men-footwear-bugaboot,default,sc.html
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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 02 Apr 2014 19:21 #229712

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I think it has something to do with not eating until five pm and then eating some type of fruit that costs 2.49. whatever the cause is, we gotta keep on trucking. We're in this together.
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 03 Apr 2014 00:46 #229742

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Speechless!

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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 03 Apr 2014 01:30 #229743

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Update:
In the morning I fell again right when I woke up.I'm going to put this all into one fall and stick to the original plan.
I made a taphsic like geder and spoke to Hashem a bit.I know that I just have to push through the first few days and it'll get easier.
Sorry for not talking to anyone from gye today, I'm still sulking.

Btw tz, it was 2.49 a pound and...you probably are right.

Two Jamaicans were throwing stones at a mango tree to see if they could get a fruit to fall down. One jamaican said to the other "all this work, what if the mango is not ripe?" So one of the Jamaicans climbed the tree and felt a mango and could tell that it was ripe. He came down told his friend and they both continued throwing stones at the mangoes.

Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 03 Apr 2014 02:12 #229744

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I can totally relate. When i came back from Israel (i was doing very well), I plunged right back to my old ways. I think you just gotta brush it off and reach out to people. KOT!!!!!!!!!!!
I am happy to speak on the phone. Please email me at dms1234ongye@gmail.com

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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 03 Apr 2014 02:36 #229745

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inastruggle wrote:
Update:
In the morning I fell again right when I woke up.


YOU woke up when it was still MORNING?!
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 03 Apr 2014 02:55 #229747

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Re: The chronicles of inastruggle 03 Apr 2014 22:39 #229829

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Day one,

I forgot how hard the first day is.This morning I really had a craving to go watch something, instead I spoke to myself and explained why it's not going to be good for me.It kind of worked and after a few minutes the urge subsided.
I know that it's only going to get easier, so I'm going to KOT.
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