Well I meant to post this earlier, but I just never felt like it was the right time.So the news is that, I'm probably going to be off the forum from a day or two after sukkos until pesach.

Be"h I'm off to Israel.

I dunno what to say, too many goodbyes, I still have a few days left.

Forget it, I'm gonna say goodbye later.

it should be b'hatzlachah

your insights will be missed

No goodbye's...


WELCOME!!! to the holy land brother inna, red carpet enroute

Warning: We do not tolerate any St. Marry's sculpture, beware of the rockthrowers!!!

NOT saying goodbye

Avrom wrote:


Did somebody call me?

Well.That's that.I'm off.Not really right now, but I don't think I'll be able to do much more than pop in until I leave so I'm going to say goodbye now.

GOODBYE



As of now it looks like I won't be having internet access, but I will have some limited email access.That means goodbye forum for the most part... :'(


And now for the never before posted story of gye's impact in my life.

I've been on this forum almost 9 months.

What it did for me is amazing, it not only changed my acting out, it gave me new friends, it changed my attitudes on many things, pretty much changed my attitude on life, changed the way I act, brought out different parts of personality, and immensely boosted my self confidence (not gayvah, see avrom at his gye office).

The forum came into my life at a point where I really needed it (though I didn't really realize it then).My friends had been leaving yeshiva steadily and I hadn't been making new ones to replace them.I was slowly going into a shell and getting isolated and depressed.Looking back now, I have to say things did not look so good.

Then I joined the forum.

I used to be a big worrier, always thinking about the future and many times to forget to live the only time I could, in the present.I came here and one of the first things I learnt was to forget about the future, I can't do anything about it anyway so what's the point?

I hated speaking to people I didn't know.That must've contributed to my lack of friends as well.After meeting so many strangers around the world I can't say I like speaking to people I don't know, but it definitely got easier.Besides, after that a guy in your yeshiva is practically family.

I now realize that I also lacked a certain amount of self confidence.I realize that because now I don't feel the need to imagine myself better than everyone else.I used to always try to see how much better I am than others at things, smarter, or at least different.After coming here and making true friends who definitely aren't my friends because of my amazing tzidkus, being able to give my opinions and have others agree or at least respect them, being able to make jokes and having others think they're funny, well, it just makes a person believe in himself.
I don't really feel such a need to be different, I know in some ways I am, but if I really think about it, I'm not super smart, super good, or super different.I'm me, and that's fine.

As I said, I was slowly withdrawing into myself.I decided it was because I was an introvert, I only needed a few close friends anyway.Once I made friends here and my confidence went up, I went back to yeshiva after pesach and made a whole bunch of friends, and for some reason I like it.Guess I'm not that introverted after all....

I guess I shouldn't leave out the reason I came.I used to act out pretty much whenever I had unfiltered internet, a.k.a. pretty much whenever I was home.I never looked at it as a stress reliever or something I used to change my mood, being that I almost always did it whether or not I had a strong tayva to.I also didn't really consider it such a big deal, I didn't know how chamur it was, and even when I found out it was a d'oraisa from wikipedia I thought that everyone did it, at least everyone with unfiltered internet.And anyway I'm an oness since I found it at such a young age and didn't know it was assur until I was toaim taamah d'isura so many times.Plus my family didn't have filters so it was their fault since probably no one can resist unfiltered internet.

When I came here, one of the first things that hit me was people actually taking it seriously! What's the big deal? Everyone does it, right?...
But here all these guys were talking about falling like it's such a bad thing.I still fell a nice amount of times after finding gye since I wasn't ready to give it up yet.
After changing a lot of perspectives I hadn't even realized I had, I realized I can and should give it up.I still had some slips, and there's absolutely no guarantee I'll stay clean forever, but thanks to gye, I do believe I can.

So, I bid farewell to what may very well be the greatest site on the internet.I hope to keep on writing in every now and then, I'm definitely planning to keep in contact with the chevra, so forum, until next time, this is inastruggle signing off.

Well goodbye. :'(

but I'll be seeing you as soon as i get back to my nest! Be prepared!!!

INNA QUOTES!
INNA QUOTES!
INNA QUOTES!
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INNA QUOTES!
INNA QUOTES!
INNA QUOTES!
INNA QUOTES!

"where's the nosh?"
~ Inna, circa 5773

"Halloween Esrogim"
~ Inna, circa 5774

"being able to make jokes and having others think they're funny, well, it just makes a person believe in himself"
~ Inna, circa 5774

inastruggle wrote:

Innocents Abroad
The Eagle has landed
The statue was delivered
Inna is abroad, confirmed

Inna has left the building...

THE EAGLE IS STILL FLYING STRONG!!!!

Well, I'm back.

Hi everyone, It's nice to be back in the states (weird as well, getting re-used to everything).

Now for a bit of an update:
I joined OINK in Israel and I think that it helped me grow in many ways.

I passed a year mark on the 90 day chart.

That's pretty much it...

inastruggle wrote:


Correction: KNOW