Be strong buddy... I just reached level 1.
I did once reach level two while using the 90-chart, but never longer than that. I am guessing the real trials will start around that point.. but this time I am being active in the forum, and opening up, and I think and hope that it will make all the difference.

I think that i am starting to see that everyone here kind of goes through a sort of shock......like at first you dont want to believe it all ....so we try to break it with this resolution and that one but its always the last place you look...meaning it will really work when it does and we all need to find ourselves and our strength to resist ....even the falls if they happen need to become spring boards and not padleboards...today was a comparatively difficult day both in general and with this problem for me.....my yetzer tries to trick me ....but so far i have bounced along with out soo much as a slip

My wife is still sick

KOT!!!

and Refuah Shleimah!!

soo as i approach shabbat and so on i have to say....what is going on lately ....even the news is out to break me lately ....

well i am doing soomething else now

What's going on?

We shall defend our island, whatever the cost may be, we shall fight on the beaches, we shall fight on the landing grounds, we shall fight in the fields and in the streets, we shall fight in the hills; we shall never surrender

One of winstons greatest speaches...to which i want to add..

And with G-d we will win

We are in it fellow freedom fighters...the last of battles for the freedom of our minds from the slavery of animalistic passions

To rise to become more then we are now

Did you know Mr. Churchill was a alcoholic (among other things)?

Woman at a party: “Sir, you are drunk.”
Churchill: “Madam, you are ugly. And in the morning, I shall be sober.”

"If your going through hell, keep going"

WC

Im not the biggest fan of wc but i thought that was a good saying for what we here deal with every day ....i truly feel tgat the group here are different from other people in the way we deal with our struggles in shmirat enayim and brit

שנה טובה to all

As i write this there would be tears in my eyes if it were not that i am at a bus stop......althouhh i am alittle misty-eyed

Since the start of rosh hashana my challeneges have trippled in intensity.....so far sooo good

No slips no falls.....althouhh i had near slip

Business is not getting any easier .....people so far just arent reliable small guys like me get out muscled easily im no giving up its just frustrating

My breaking out of addiction is soo tough at times ....cause i almost forget my directives ...but then i remember why i must go on


Money is worthless in our time ....25 bucks dont buy much more then 9 items at a store .....avg 2.5 dollars each....things that cost about 1 dollar year and a half ago.....


Financial stress real or othrrwise felt is my single greatest trigger to act out....but im not.......i remember all the hell i went through getting even to here and i remember that all that i have is a gift

I wasnt supposed to have anything i have now .....but at the same time people depend on me and i feel inadequet mostly


G-D help me (as a prayer not as an s.o.s.)

Please join me in increasing his karma to at least 10, as a sign that we are all with him together.
He always gives us such chizuk; his strength now.
Additionally, make sure you hit the thank you button below. We all owe him thanks for giving us strength.

Karma and "Thank you's"!
Onward
b'hatzlachah!!!!!

LM, your tears are precious.

Hazoirim bedimoh berinoh yiktsoiru.

Rabbosai, in a bit over an hour, he made it from 3 to 8; increase his karma to 10 or beyond, as a demonstration of chizuk for him and for all of us.

Sh'koyach

b'hatzlachah

Ten!!!!
10!!!!!!!!!
A perfect ten (hope that's not triggerin')

Laughingman; look how much you are loved down here; we cannot imagine how much you are loved by God. There is no number; no amount of karma that could describe it. He looks down at you and your family and says, "Chazu, chazu, banai, banai, banai chavivai." What a Kiddush Hashem you are!

KOT!

everyone is behind you!