I called myself bearing. I'm wondering how I'm bearing my diseased self? My addiction? My constant struggles?
Is it all for me to bear alone? Can I surrender myself? Declare utter powerlessnes?
Is it a question of ability or of necessity?
Once I surrender will I be left to fall apart? Or will He hold me together?

Twelve years of insatiable lusting leave me with with no choice, either I consciously lose myself to Him or I will lost to the never ending whirlpool of lust.
 My wife's discovery leaves me obliged, makes me realise serious help is needed.

bearing wrote on 03 Dec 2017 10:58:

Welcome to GYE. You've come to the right place. So many people have been helped here, it's a great place to get some much needed support and guidance. Keep on posting and read around the forums. Good luck!

Hi bearing,
I like your poetry with your addictionary - keep them coming

I don't know what to do, I find it too easy to surrender the fight to Him.
 I'm afraid of unfounded confidence and complacency which will lead me to my next fall, asvl MY history has proven.

bearing wrote on 03 Dec 2017 22:15:

As soon as you join gye, you logon incognito where "history" has no "bearing