another day another fall every couple of days:(
I used to watch porn I stopped years ago...
However all of sudden I keep falling without it(masturbation)
I'm on psychiatric drugs mainly for a turbulent childhood, that would probably ruin anyones life and changed doses around than
But as recently as a few 4 months ago I started this new trend
I'm not sure what to do anymore:(
If I'm not watching porn what can I do for myself
how

The Big Book says "we have to get down to causes and conditions"
looking at your record: why do you slip up every couple days/months?
do you only slip on a good day? A bad day? Whe  the relatioship is good? When its bad?
or all of the above?
if the cause is always 'something out there' - than it's impossible to get sober, because there'll always be something that will send me flying.
my childhood is my childhood - never going to change - does that mean I'm doomed for life?? Definitely not!! But that's only if I could stay sober DESPITE my childhood.
but it'll only work once I get to the root cause.
if the root cause is truly only because of childhood - so get a good therapist, work it through and bingo, you'll be sober.
but if 'your childhood' is only a cover up, and the real cause is a internal condition that warps my thinking when it comes to lust, than im pretty much doomed thinking that dealing with my childhood will fix it - it's like a diabetic saying dealing with childhood will change his condition.
so basically, be honest with yourself: what is the real cause?
if it's something out there - than deal with it.
but if it's something in here - deal with it, and perhaps I'm too unhealthy that I can't change with my own resources...
Yes, there definitely is help that works. But i cant go to the dentist to fix my foot...
G-D bless and have a great day!

What emotions do go through before a fall? Are you tired, stressed, relaxed or just bored? once you know that you are halfway through recovery.
good luck

depressed, and lonely:frowning:

chazak1234 wrote on 14 Aug 2017 15:42:

NOW THAT YOURE HERE ITS NOT LONELY ANYLONGER AND DEPRESSION DISSIPATES

If you stay here... Cos you'll feel the camaradie and more...

If you choose to leave, you have sealed your fat