Hi!
I signed up on GYE some time ago, apart from signing up, I didn't do much. My computers are filtered since I have them, recently i found a way to bypass any filter, and I felt like was left by myself on the water. I struggled, then I noticed something very strange, and I put it to test, and I;d like to share it with you.
I'mm technically self employed. So I have to ask each day from Hashem (not my humane boss) to be kind to me and give me Parnossoh.
Some days were easy some days harder.
One day I turned to Hashem, "Listen, today I had a Nisayon, to watch non Tznius'dige photos, I need to cover today this expense, please send it to me. I was amazed how by the end of the day, in the most natural way a Job landed covering that expense!
The very same happened the next day, and the thereafter.
The next day I failed, and I found in the post, a non expect bill, of around $1,300!!!
I felt that it was as simple as that, I behave Hashem comes forward to me, I don't! He sends me his very clear message.
The next day I though to myself, maybe it's just a coincidence. That very day I came across a non Tznius'dige photo, and I didn't resist and I went back to view that picture, being aware that somehow I'll and up paying the consequences! And Hashem didn't wait, barely 2 hours later I received an email, of an outstanding balance which needs to be cleared strait away or else... I didn't have the funds!
I decided that's it, Hashem is clearly here and watching me personally, I gotta be stupid, not to behave myself, so I decided that;s it, I will no more fail, I sent back an email to explaining that I can only cover half this week, and the rest I'll cover next week. In the morning I woke up to a kind email, accepting my offer.
Knowing this, I feel I have the strongest filter "in my heart!"
All the best
Yossele