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Re: My life 15 Feb 2015 15:57 #248686

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About the emuna and the yidden and goyim question that was brought up here I think I have a very good perspective and explanation. I don't know if these forums are the place for such a discussion but I just wanted to say that you shouldn't be so bothered by the question because there is a good tairutz.

Re: My life 18 Feb 2015 19:12 #248958

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newaction wrote:
Appearance first if you read the Big Book , Alcoholics Anonymous you will find the answer to your question .


Hello new action.
Personally I think that reading the book is not enough.
In fact, I read it 2 times.
It is necessary that someone explain it to you.
It's fantastic call GYE where not only read the book, "is a workshop recovery".
From there you learned the phrase "It's simple but not easy." Right?

Anyway I need to try the meetings.
These are resources that Hashem sends me and I have to take advantage.

Re: My life 18 Feb 2015 19:17 #248959

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Hashivalisesonyishecho wrote:


AND YOU DID IT!!!

That's amazing. It looks like you have more strength of character than you realize. Keep up the good work!


Thanks for all the support and encouragement they all give me here.

Re: My life 19 Feb 2015 17:42 #249023

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People who go to SA say it's not even the meetings, it's DOING the stepwork that really makes the difference.

Re: My life 27 Feb 2015 21:43 #249601

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Hello friends.
Now, I am at meetings of SA. only a few meetings.
In meetings, is very nice that I can talk openly with people who not only understands me, they have gone through similarles circumstances. That gives me peace of mind.
I do not feel the same fear of falling as I felt before. Now I know that Hashem protects me.
I know I need to work on the steps, and even as it pains me, I need to change my behavior. I think I need to "remove" several aspects of my life.

After a short stop looking at pictures and leave MZL time, I feel good.
Now I can look at my wife's eyes, and feel no shame, I can tell her that I love her.
Actually, now I feel that she is very beautiful, much more than I deserve ...
I do not know why this is happening, but it is very nice.

The desire to look at pictures back to me, but everything ends. I have the desire to let pass, and calling for a hashem their care. And the miracle happens !!

Hashem wants us to not only stop the action, he wants me to be near him.
Several times I feel that I Hashem closes roads that I want to go, and he takes me by others, to be near him.

Thank You!

Re: My life 01 Mar 2015 01:46 #249607

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And thank YOU for such a share.

Keep us posted please.

Posts like that give all of us chizuk!

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Re: My life 03 Mar 2015 21:26 #249884

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Appearance hi ! I sent you a reply.

Re: My life 24 Mar 2015 21:53 #251177

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I am happy.
After a long time ago to not looking images, in the last week my desire it was strong ,and things have not gone well.
The situation was tough and is was going worse.
Yesterday at the meeting, companion told me that I need to do something to stop acting: My specific action.
(In my case MZL and watch images).
"It is better throw the things that make me fall still if you know you're are going to come back to buy again. On the way to buy, the higher power (Hashem) may present to me to take me a care and not be able to buy it again."
At that moment I thought that, having "garbage", to a one click away ("just I watch a little, nothing happens") I do not deliver me to hashem.

I received an Email of GYE where reminds me that I have not installed yet a filter.
And that's the way to "throw away the things that they harm to me." Away from me as possible!!!

I thought it was hard to do. Technically speaking.
But in about 2 or 3 steps, I restricted the phone.

Mentally, I was need two years to decide! (And what better time to do that after a fall?).

My brother is the שומר of the password.

Hashem.
I do not know how to be near to you (and I do not want to try to understand how it works), but, if the filter makes you happy, then, I NEAR TO YOU

Thanks for making me Hashem things "so easy".
Last Edit: 24 Mar 2015 21:55 by Appearance.

Re: My life 24 Mar 2015 23:31 #251180

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That's amazin! You show such gevura! Keep up the phenomenal work!

Re: My life 25 Mar 2015 08:28 #251194

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Hi Appearance,
I don't know much things but I just wanted to tell you that this thread of you gives me a lot of strength, especially the last updates !
It' amazing to see and feel, even behind a screen, the changment you are making in your life ! In fact all your last messagse are just exuding serenity, peace of mind and more : a very specific relation near Hachem..!

Thank you so much for the chizuk and I'm waiting for others very very good news from you !!

Re: My life 29 Mar 2015 18:50 #251471

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And Appearance,

please don't be a stranger.
you are very strong when you are a regular here, and you saw from last time how many people were involved in your recovery.

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Re: My life 09 Apr 2015 21:06 #252040

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Hi every one.
Thanks for your support.
Here is a wonderful place to open up. Free of fear.
I feel that you are "the voice of Hashem".
I remember a משל. Something like this...

A man falls into the ocean.
He see the situation. It is very dangerous for him and he knows that he not have a chance to live.
He knows, Only Hashem can to save him.
With all of his feelings he pray to Hashem: "please Hashem, I can't do nothing to save me, only you can save me. Please do not let me die".
"Hashem I have a family, they needs me, my wife, my children".

Then, comes a boat to rescue him.
But he did not want to climb. He desires the salvation of Hashem.
The boat leave without him.

And he repeat with all his heart: "please Hashem, save me".
He see a helicopter cam to that place.
Is coming to save him and he don't wish to ride up to the helicopter.
Again he pray to Hashem, "please save me".

The נמשל.
Hashem give us the salvation, but we have the dude "what's happen, why Hashem not receive my תפילות?
Really, Hashem give us the answer, but we don't wanna see. We wants "his" salvation.

I think all of you are the voice of Hashem. Your advises is my answer.
Exactly wherever I am I for one reason. Hashem wants to me near him.
Exactly where I'm it's the right place for me.
It's so hard to believe that clearly but is the true.

Thanks you people to be here, near to me.

Re: My life 09 Apr 2015 21:47 #252042

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Thank you for being here!
Much Hatzlacha!

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--"To promise not to do a thing is the surest way in the world to make a body want to go and do that very thing." Mark Twain
--"If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking (or lusting), you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic (or sexaholic)." AA Big Book P. 45. Parenthesis added.
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Re: My life 15 May 2015 06:35 #254783

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Hi!
I want to share only briefly.
BH I'm going to meetings of SA and all I can say is, Wow.
There are wonderful people there, really, people striving with all his being to have contact with Hashem.

Another thing I know is that they care for me and I am also very fond of them for helping me grow and make me feel very happy in the group.

Another thing. There is much, much work to do.
Truth be told: There are a lot GYE lot of work to do to recover, and there is more work still SA: as wounds and surgery.

The recovery means making real domestic changes. It is not easy, but the experience of others in the group shows that it is possible.

Some of you, above commented that not just go to meetings but have to work the steps. It's definitely true.

Thanks!

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Thanks for the update.

Hatzlacha!
Much Hatzlacha!

My Threads:
Glad to be here
Don't slip it hurts
Lions & Tigers & Internet, Oh My!

--"ולא המדרש עיקר, אלא המעשה"
--"To promise not to do a thing is the surest way in the world to make a body want to go and do that very thing." Mark Twain
--"If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking (or lusting), you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic (or sexaholic)." AA Big Book P. 45. Parenthesis added.
--You hit rock bottom when you decide to stop digging.
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