Don't despair!! I know how terrible a fall can be after making it clean for a nice streak, ppossibly worse than a fall just a day after another fall. But i trult believe it's the yetzer hara because he sees now that you really have a desire and you're putting in real effort to break this thing. So when you fall, he sees this as an opportunity more than ever to get you down and give up. Don't!! A tzaddik isn't someone who never falls, rather it's someone who falls many times but keeps getting up every time and trying again. So dust yourself off, and maybe sit down with a piece of paper and think what were the thoughts and feelings you were having before and after your fall and use that to prepare for the future. And remember to take this one day at a time. Your 90day count may be reset, but in the struggle you still have everything you've gained till now.

Savor your precious 11 days. You're not back to zero, you gained a lot of knowledge and experience, and you now know that you can do it again. If you're clean right now then that's all that's important.

the important thing is that you are clean right now at this second, u have to take it moment by moment. eventually after you accumulate moments you can get tot days weeks and years, but that is not the focus, and in my opinion it never should be. focus on right now and that is it. every second is a new world.

Get right back up and make it 11+1

It's the NOW that matters!! One day at a time!!

Enjoy the NOW, relish it, make it the best that you can!!

Keep on Trucking!! One Day at a time!!

Still pretty new here myself, however, sign up with the 90 day chart and keep updating it. It's a small incentive to really keep track and have it show on your posts where you're holding.

We're all fighting the same battle, some are steeped in it more than others and we've all fallen, but you have to get back on and keep on trying.

To put a little fear into you, now that you've joined this website and the forums, you see that there is a way to succeed. Now you know you're not the only one and you know that others have been successful, so you have to believe in yourself and push yourself to succeed as well and you can't just give up without a fight!

Mitzvah Man it seems from what you describe that you may be addicted to lust.If that is the case then there is a solution called the 12 steps which is based on Alcoholics Anonymous. It works.

If you want freedom then email me puredaniel613@gmail.com

I guarantee that if you follow the program you will not only get more than 10 days but a lifetime!

Btw, from the fact that you've gone ten days on your own means that you can for sure pull off twenty to thirty days or more with the support here

Thanks for all your support.
So inspiring.

We're all here for you! KOP and KOMT!!

Hit 10 days again, here's where it starts to get tough.
Any new ideas?

Yes.
Now.
Today.
That's it.

Day 10 ain't no different that day 6 or 3!

b'hatzlachah

Mitzvamnan,
Once you figure it out, please let me know. I am struggling to get to 10.

mitzvaman613 wrote:
Aiyn chodosh tachas hashomayim. Read the handbook. Read some Dov Quotes. It sounds like you are "holding your breath" and need some positive sobriety.

What are your triggers? I am primarily talking about emotional triggers, boredom, lonliness, stress, anxiety, depression.

Let Hashem run your life. Let go of worry, fear, resentment. He loves you and takes care of you. Most (maybe all) of our negative feelings come from feeling WE are in charge and need to do this or that.

See the beautiful article that Gevurah posted a link to on Matzav. It has a very nice perspective on this. matzav.com/tests-challenges-and-nisyonos.

hey whats up all of us can relate now no use talking like an expert infront of all of them but until you reach the peace of mind in that hashem is running your life try and talk to him I know it works for me,

and a bout the taphsic the only way to ruin the hollines of a shevuah is if you break it and most people wouldn't want to break it, so like its been suggested read thru it carefully and email the helpline they get back very quckly and take the challenge
b'hatzlochoh