Hey littleman, I'm so happy you've found the place where I and many others have had our lives tremendously changed. I want to share a bit of my ABDL journey with you.First of all, over the years, I've found many other of our Yiddish brothers who are struggling with this. I've even found some in their 50s. All of them told me that this is something that gets worse with age and that there's nothing to stop it. I witnessed this myself for many years until Hashem gave me the best thing in the world: the guidance to reach out for help here on GYE and in the Yiddish forum. The older I got, the more fantasies I had, and the more miserable my life became as I did more and more reckless things.
After I got here and opened up to my dayan and talked to Relief, they all advised me to see a sex addiction therapist. Even though I could have sworn that my ABDL side had nothing to do with sex at all (and I still don't understand why many ABDLs say that in the first while when they reach out for help, but it's a fact), I eventually trusted them and started seeing a sex addiction therapist. I've been with him for almost two years now, and the changes have been huge. I don't want to trigger anyone by talking specifically about what used to trigger me, but I can tell you it's been a miracle. Things that used to consume my thoughts for days or weeks after I accidentally saw them now barely register. I'm still working through my ABDL tendencies with my therapist's guidance, and slowly, I'm getting free of them. It's impossible to describe the feeling of slowly emerging from the big ABDL prison into a free life where I'm gaining control of myself. As I'm typing this, tears are welling up when I remember where I've come from. Yes, it's not an easy way out, and I'm still not completely free, but it's worth going through everything and spending all the money to be where I am now, and b'ezrat Hashem, it keeps getting better.Over the past two years, I've connected with other ABDLs who are also getting help and making good progress. From my perspective, the best results come from going to a sex addiction therapist.
I love you, holy brother, and I'm so excited that you've found this lovely place. I'm sure that you can and WILL come out of this in the end by doing the work, just like many others have.

Feel free to ask me or to reach out to me, I'll beither very happy to answer and help you with wht I can. I'm willing to share you specific parts of my (our) struggle if that will help, just reach out in private