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Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 03:44 #368333
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Gevura Shebyesod wrote on 11 May 2021 03:36:
All good things must come to an end… I’m so embarrassed but I have to do this… I fell last night  don’t have time for a detailed post. But it’s been building up for a while. A confluence of stress factors in my life, slacking off on being vigilant in these inyanim, and generally falling into feelings of loneliness and isolation again. Slowly circling the drain, risking more peeks, looking at “borderline” material. Not being careful about touching. Letting myself fantasize about people I see. A few days ago I had an intense wet dream, the first one in years. That should have been a warning sign that things were getting out of hand. And last night I just let go and M. ok time to get back in the truck. Pump up the tires, check the brakes, clean the windows (maybe that’s not such a good idea…) hayom Yom echad… Oh wow that's so courageous to post that! I have no words. I guess it's a lesson for all of us... Thanks for sharing. |
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Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 04:06 #368335
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My email address is: growinghigher613@gmail.com
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Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 04:13 #368336
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Think about how good you'll feel if you say no to desire and compare that to how bad you'll feel if you say yes.
Desire is unique in the way that it is never fulfilled - if you give in the desire comes back even more powerful in just a few days. Telling yourself that its ok because this is really the last time doesn't work because you are just adding new images to your head that will cause future falls. The Joy of triumph over the yetzer hara is worth the effort it takes to win. It IS worth it! Keep fighting! My thread: Aiming to be better Feel free to contact me at evedhashem1836@gmail.com |
Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 05:05 #368340
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Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 05:53 #368342
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Gevura Shebyesod wrote on 11 May 2021 03:36:
All good things must come to an end… I’m so embarrassed but I have to do this… I fell last night don’t have time for a detailed post. But it’s been building up for a while. A confluence of stress factors in my life, slacking off on being vigilant in these inyanim, and generally falling into feelings of loneliness and isolation again. Slowly circling the drain, risking more peeks, looking at “borderline” material. Not being careful about touching. Letting myself fantasize about people I see. A few days ago I had an intense wet dream, the first one in years. That should have been a warning sign that things were getting out of hand. And last night I just let go and M. ok time to get back in the truck. Pump up the tires, check the brakes, clean the windows (maybe that’s not such a good idea…) hayom Yom echad… 1. You have been and remain a tremendous inspiration for myself as well as for many others here. 2. You say that “all great things must come to an end.” May yes maybe no. But this my friend, is not the end. This isn’t just a “good thing.” You have transformed yourself into a person of Kedusha. You fell, that’s ok you’re human. This is not the end. 3. As someone who personally fell off a large streak and have had a hard time since, I am greatly moved and inspired by your sudden willingness to jump back up. Besides Gevura Shebyesod. This is Gevura SHEB’GVURA! |
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Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 10:35 #368343
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וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל "If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE." "Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome." - General Grant My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends |
Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 11:17 #368347
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Feel free to contact me at michelgelner@gmail.com
My threads: Lessons Learned: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/335248-Lessons-Learned My Story and G-d Bless GYE: guardyoureyes.com/forum/17-Balei-Battims-Forum/303036-My-story-and-G-d-bless-GYE |
Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 11:25 #368348
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Gevura Shebyesod wrote on 11 May 2021 03:36:
All good things must come to an end… I’m so embarrassed but I have to do this… I fell last night don’t have time for a detailed post. But it’s been building up for a while. A confluence of stress factors in my life, slacking off on being vigilant in these inyanim, and generally falling into feelings of loneliness and isolation again. Slowly circling the drain, risking more peeks, looking at “borderline” material. Not being careful about touching. Letting myself fantasize about people I see. A few days ago I had an intense wet dream, the first one in years. That should have been a warning sign that things were getting out of hand. And last night I just let go and M. ok time to get back in the truck. Pump up the tires, check the brakes, clean the windows (maybe that’s not such a good idea…) hayom Yom echad… That does take real gevurah! Godspeed to you my friend. |
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My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads: Mikvah Night - Page 1, Page 2, Page 3, Last Page https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/1-Break-Free/210029-Tryin  Warning: Spoiler!Quote from the chevra: "Is Cordnoy truly a Treasure Island pirate from the Southern Seas?" MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED. |
Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 16:10 #368366
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Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 16:25 #368369
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If I may question this whole concept of counting days...
If we use it as a tool to change bad habits, that's great. But the count is in no way an indicator of the person. You can be at day one and be much better off than someone that's on day 1000 ... My humble opinion is to really rethink the way we use and view these counts... Feel free to agree and disagree 
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"If I am not for myself, who will be for me? But if I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when?"
feel free to reach out @ ahavayirah@gmail.com |
Re: hello my friends.... 11 May 2021 20:31 #368380
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Re: hello my friends.... 14 May 2021 16:24 #368594
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Gevura Shebyesod wrote on 11 May 2021 03:36:
All good things must come to an end… I’m so embarrassed but I have to do this… I fell last night don’t have time for a detailed post. But it’s been building up for a while. A confluence of stress factors in my life, slacking off on being vigilant in these inyanim, and generally falling into feelings of loneliness and isolation again. Slowly circling the drain, risking more peeks, looking at “borderline” material. Not being careful about touching. Letting myself fantasize about people I see. A few days ago I had an intense wet dream, the first one in years. That should have been a warning sign that things were getting out of hand. And last night I just let go and M. ok time to get back in the truck. Pump up the tires, check the brakes, clean the windows (maybe that’s not such a good idea…) hayom Yom echad… Kudos to you on the enormous courage by posting in the very next day and not letting it get to you. This takes enormous gevurah and is, IMHO true kedusha. I think everyone has already said every Dvar Torah in shaychus with what just happened, so I just want to say that I'm your big fan, and please keep inspiring us (and trucking :p) Well I thought of something, anyway: "Lev nishbar zevach lelokim"... A contrived heart is an offering to Elokim, G-ds name in hester, occultation, which is, in a certain way connected to a higher level. The level of hester is so high a level, that it comes to us as something negative. It's so high, that we don't understand it, it looks like darkness. But in it, is contained the ultimate light. |
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אם יהיו חטאיכם כשנים, כשלג ילבינו
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Re: hello my friends.... 23 May 2021 18:53 #368874
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Gevura Shebyesod wrote on 11 May 2021 03:36:
All good things must come to an end… I’m so embarrassed but I have to do this… I fell last night don’t have time for a detailed post. But it’s been building up for a while. A confluence of stress factors in my life, slacking off on being vigilant in these inyanim, and generally falling into feelings of loneliness and isolation again. Slowly circling the drain, risking more peeks, looking at “borderline” material. Not being careful about touching. Letting myself fantasize about people I see. A few days ago I had an intense wet dream, the first one in years. That should have been a warning sign that things were getting out of hand. And last night I just let go and M. ok time to get back in the truck. Pump up the tires, check the brakes, clean the windows (maybe that’s not such a good idea…) hayom Yom echad… You are a brave and humble man. Even in your distress you continue to motivate. Hatzlocho! |
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Re: hello my friends.... 24 May 2021 12:35 #368907
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I came.
I saw I conquered. I failed. Too much I. |
Re: hello my friends.... 24 May 2021 14:02 #368909
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