I heard a vort years ago. Avraham Avinu was about to shecht his son on the akeida.
he tied up his son
his hand took the knife
he moved in for the final cut.
one can imagine that if avraham avinu was about to shecht a korban, it was with all the heilige kavanos. with all the hachanos. he went through nisoyon after nisoyon on the way to har habayis. and now he was emotionally prepared for the biggest sacrifice.
just then the malach comes and says STOP. and he did. he backed down on all of his kavanos. all of his intentions of the ultimate sacrifice to Hashem.
He was able to do so because every second of his life he was thinking what does Hashem want from me right now. A second before, Hashem wanted him to shecht. This second Hashem wanted him to refrain. that's why he was able to refrain on the second.
עתה ידעתי כי ירא אל-ים אתה.
Halevay we get somewhere near that darga of being constantly aware of what Hashem wants from us every second and doing it besimcha. מתי יגיעו מעשי למעשב אבותי. we have it in us. we inherited the koach from our alte zeide Avrohom. we just have to work on it slowly,

Thanks. As we say in Yiddish:

מען דארף נישט זארגען וואס וועט זיין מארגען

Hatzlacha

MT

l'mnois yomainu kain hoidah- teach us to count our days. being that's our whole life- a day after the next. grab your day.

Machshovo Tova wrote:
I know it will lose in translation, but could you please translate for those of us that are yiddish challenged?

Thanks!

This, by the way, regardin' myself and one of my struggles has just happened in the last few days. I was able to "turn the corner." A certain struggle - although I was one day at a timin' it the last 14 months, I was never able to say - even to myself that it is permanent - now I can and did say it.

cordnoy wrote:


To clarify: I had a p and m issue for several decades.
Since i came here last June, I have that under control.
My eyes have always wandered and they still do....I now have tools to deal with that. I win some and I lose some...(don't know score).
My big issue still left was when I am alone (either I go away or wife goes away).
I had desire for the Norwegian woman and to frequent clubs.
Since last June, I fell with the woman 3x.
I have not fallen with clubs....but....I have been several times in the parkin' lots or nearby. T'was a struggle and always on my mind. I always think that eventually I will find my way back there.

Last week (and for now, let us not get into the Waterloo moment), it became clear to me that I will NEVER EVER enter one of those clubs again. That is the truck I am now drivin'. It will be stayin' on the highway. How confident am i? Pretty confident. It does not weigh on my mind any longer. It is now like other lust issues...I concentrate on the moment before me.

Regardin' the woman, i was so disgusted with what happened last time, she has not entered my mind at all. [For those of you who are deep thinkers....I did not conclude in my mind the same conclusion as the clubs; i have not said that i will never contact her again. She is simply far away and far removed from my mind. Perhaps that is the lost truck with the $20.00 bill under the carpet.]

"Hope" this was clearer.

Thanks

b'hatzlachah