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Re: My struggles with kedushah 01 Jan 2025 15:22 #428253

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cheerfulswan42 wrote on 01 Jan 2025 05:01:
But how can you stop if you feel that horny

Because I made up my mind that I just don't do these things anymore.
Not that I'll fight and won't give in.
Its completely off the table.
Often, when an urge hits, I don't pay any attention to it, ignore it, and just go on with life.
But don't worry, I'm not perfect.
I fell and m'd last night.
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
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Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
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or this one
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Re: My struggles with kedushah 03 Jan 2025 01:32 #428382

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I've been feeling pretty lonely the past few days.

But boruch Hashem I'm still pretty clean, and most of the time my brain isn't trying to send me to m to pacify. (I never consciously went to m to soothe, I would just have sudden intense urges to m when I needed soothing).

So I guess that's something to celebrate.
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
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Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
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or this one
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Last Edit: 03 Jan 2025 03:43 by tzaddikvikam13.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 03 Jan 2025 20:33 #428427

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Didn't fall asleep last night until around 3:30, and got up at a normal time today.
I didn't shower earlier today because I was really tired and had a small urge and was afraid that I would slip up in the shower.
Now I don't feel any taavah at all, but now I'm too tired to be able to think straight enough to figure out if it's safe for me to go now or not.
Probably won't.
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!


Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
or this one
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Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Jan 2025 01:04 #428653

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Bad mood, irritable, and lonely. Didn't get sleep normally last night, and I'm vibrating with restless nervous energy.
Feeling like I'm going nuts.
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!


Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
or this one
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Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Jan 2025 01:19 #428656

So sorry to hear this. I hope tomorrow goes better.

PS Your humor in your new thread is EPIC!

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Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Jan 2025 01:30 #428657

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tzaddikvikam13 wrote on 08 Jan 2025 01:04:
Bad mood, irritable, and lonely. Didn't get sleep normally last night, and I'm vibrating with restless nervous energy.
Feeling like I'm going nuts.

Literally could've written this post, exactly my story today. I even briefly considered falling. Helps to remember feelings will pass. Hang in there my friend!
"Believe you can and you're halfway there" - Theodore Roosevelt
"Comparison is the thief of joy" - also Theodore Roosevelt

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Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Jan 2025 01:58 #428664

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Trying to numb, drugged myself the past half hour with candy crush.
The empty stimulation did its magic for a while, until I got stuck on a level.
Time for some more tricks.
Came back here to try to get some dopamine hits from replies and thank yous.
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!


Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
or this one
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
Last Edit: 08 Jan 2025 03:47 by tzaddikvikam13.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Jan 2025 04:41 #428674

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You are very quickly becoming a legend here!
You never fail to inspire me with such dedication to beat this!
Please keep posting!

Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Jan 2025 04:54 #428676

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tzaddikvikam13 wrote on 08 Jan 2025 01:58:
Trying to numb, drugged myself the past half hour with candy crush.
The empty stimulation did its magic for a while, until I got stuck on a level.
Time for some more tricks.
Came back here to try to get some dopamine hits from replies and thank yous.

Brother. Thanks for sharing where you’re upto. 

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Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Jan 2025 05:09 #428677

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Markz wrote on 08 Jan 2025 04:54:

tzaddikvikam13 wrote on 08 Jan 2025 01:58:
Trying to numb, drugged myself the past half hour with candy crush.
The empty stimulation did its magic for a while, until I got stuck on a level.
Time for some more tricks.
Came back here to try to get some dopamine hits from replies and thank yous.

Brother. Thanks for sharing where you’re upto. 

Why do you think marriage will cure everything for you

I don't remember saying anything about marriage.
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!


Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
or this one
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!

Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Jan 2025 05:16 #428678

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jollylemur95 wrote on 08 Jan 2025 04:41:
You are very quickly becoming a legend here!
You never fail to inspire me with such dedication to beat this!
Please keep posting!

I wasn't having any urges tonight.
Not every bad mood or difficulty in life brings on taavah.
I wasn't trying to keep busy to keep clean.
I was trying to escape the through-the-roof nervous energy making me feel like I was going to explode caused by a toxic mix of ADHD, anxiety, and sleep deprivation.
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!


Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
or this one
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!

Re: My struggles with kedushah 09 Jan 2025 01:11 #428750

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Just feeling lonely and saying hi.
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!


Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
or this one
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!

Re: My struggles with kedushah 09 Jan 2025 01:15 #428751

I know the feeling too well!

Us singles do experience that often. Just sitting there in bed LONELY.

I find that being out with friends can be very helpful. Weather because it distracts the feeling or because you actually aren't lonely at the time, either way it's helpful.

SSSL's Story (Google Doc)​ [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.]
Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread)

Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com.
My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Last Edit: 09 Jan 2025 15:24 by stopsurvivingstartliving.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 09 Jan 2025 03:09 #428760

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 09 Jan 2025 01:15:
I know the feeling too well!

Us singles do experience that often. Just sitting there in bad LONELY.

I find that being out with friends can be very helpful. Weather because it distracts the feeling or because you actually aren't lonely at the time, either way it's helpful.

Marrieds sometimes feel lonely too. 
Like you said friends make all the difference
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Re: My struggles with kedushah 09 Jan 2025 03:12 #428761

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...
 The biggest reward for quitting lust...
is getting to live a lust-free life.

Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!


Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
or this one
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
Last Edit: 09 Jan 2025 21:33 by tzaddikvikam13.
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