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I took that leap
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I took that leap 26 Sep 2021 10:38 #372659

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Hey guys! I'd like to share something with you guys. I  deleted the YouTube app and over chol hamoed I blocked Netflix entirely! I started falling a lot by looking up bad videos and adds on YouTube so I realized that the YouTube I access through my filtered searches engine is much cleaner than the app so I blocked the app. Then I fell two days in a row by looking things up on Netflix. As much as I feel im not ready to give up movies and shows entirely (at least for bein hazmanim), I have no choice as the stuff there is so so bad. Relying on books now for entertainment. Wish me hatzlacha. I'm on day 4 and I just took a big leap.

Re: I took that leap 26 Sep 2021 11:43 #372662

Beautiful!!!
I know how hard it is to give up this stuff. Even just a bit of it.


Even though we might not be ready to give it all up just yet, every step we take in the right direction is a major victory.


By understanding where we fall and consequently setting up a fence (in your case by deleting the app and blocking netflix), we're slowly telling ourselves that this is not what we truly want. 


Keep it up!!
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Re: I took that leap 26 Sep 2021 21:49 #372684

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Thanks. The thing is I still fell back when I learned in a yeshiva which banned smartphones. I was just more obsessed w taava.  Now I'm stronger then I was back then though so just gotta fight! Looking forward to שמחת תורה.

Re: I took that leap 26 Sep 2021 22:43 #372686

Don't worry about falling back. 
A person should try not to fall back, but if he does, he should just pick himself back up right again.
"Sheva Yipol Tzaddik V'Kom"

Re: I took that leap 27 Sep 2021 05:32 #372697

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Thanks. I need that now as I just fell. I was tired and woke up w a lot of taava. Tried taking a cold shower but ended up falling when I almost made it. Very upsetting bec as much as I block I need to reprogram my brain in order to stay clean. Made it to day 4 though.

Re: I took that leap 27 Sep 2021 13:17 #372703

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Taharat Yisrael wrote on 26 Sep 2021 10:38:
Hey guys! I'd like to share something with you guys. I  deleted the YouTube app and over chol hamoed I blocked Netflix entirely! I started falling a lot by looking up bad videos and adds on YouTube so I realized that the YouTube I access through my filtered searches engine is much cleaner than the app so I blocked the app. Then I fell two days in a row by looking things up on Netflix. As much as I feel im not ready to give up movies and shows entirely (at least for bein hazmanim), I have no choice as the stuff there is so so bad. Relying on books now for entertainment. Wish me hatzlacha. I'm on day 4 and I just took a big leap.

That’s awesome!

So someone has your AppStore password now?
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Re: I took that leap 28 Sep 2021 18:30 #372721

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I have a netspark account that someone in yeshiva has access to.

Re: I took that leap 30 Sep 2021 00:50 #372722

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Taharat Yisrael wrote on 28 Sep 2021 18:30:
I have a netspark account that someone in yeshiva has access to.

Hey you forgot to use the quote button, so it’s clear what you’re responding to. 

I wasn't asking if someone else has access to your device. Rather - are you the one setting the filters? If yes, it may be an endless battle. 

Is there a Rebbi / Counselor you can confide in. That can be very powerful like you see in the story at the end of my signature below 

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Re: I took that leap 30 Sep 2021 05:47 #372731

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Thanks for the advice but I don't have access to my own netspark account. Someone in ny yeshiva controls the settings. I ask him when I want somethinh blocked. Btw does anyone know how to delete a whatsapp profile picture? 
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