I have always, since I was a bachur, (now I'm a grandfather) had issues with shmiras ainayim. At this point if I would not have internet, I would probably not have much issue at this time. Except for an occasional glance here and there on the street, or maybe not even since I would probably never be in a spree situation. But with the internet, I have a real problem. I have a good filter, but every now and then, I try to get around it and I manage to get some bad things, not the worst things because those can't pass the filter, but bad enough. Certainly things which a Torah abiding person may not view because of velo sasuru. Then lest often but maybe once or twice a year, when for some reason my filter gets disabled, as it did yesterday, out of nothing I have have done, just for some cause unknown to me, then sometimes I fall with porn, as I did yesterday and today. Just an hour ago I sent a message to my filter provider to reconnect the filter. They haven't done that yet, but I don't think I'm in imminent danger, (though I can't be sure). The reason I have internet, or otherwise stated, the things I use the internet for, are:
- Email
- Banking
- Searching for workers
- Shopping
- Matzav and The Yeshiva World for news
- Maybe some other things which I can't think of now.
I would have a hard time giving up these things, and some of them I truly feel that I need and would have a very hard time managing without. That's why I don't have a plan. I have a plan for other things. Such as, sometimes there are cases in business or being asked advice, and I made a rule that I don't meet with women alone. I follow that rule and all is well. I can manage having that rule. But what realistic plan could I devise for this?
If anyone has real advice from real knowledge or experience, then I would appreciate your advice.