This is not a silent battle. in heaven you are extra ordinary. Not to mention how much you did for me and is still having a ripple effect till today! These zechusim will help you every step of your way even when times are hard! I think about you and your strength often, and 'imoch onoichi betzoroh'

Thank you for the smile this morning...I cna always use it.

I feel silly, coming back every few months and saying, "THIS time I'm going to stay consistent."

And the new forum layout, etc...maybe it'll grow on me. In the meantime, I'm once again hoping to post here regularly, just to stay awake and aware. Otherwise, I get stuck in autopilot, and not with a good destination.

So the basic thing is that I need to focus on my marriage. I may not be happy, but 1) that's partially just who I am, and 2) regardless of how unhappy I am, my search for happiness in this way isn't going to make me happy, just distract me from life and the unhappiness.

And the distraction isn't worth the destruction.

silentbattle wrote:

Hi Silent,

I like the quote.

We're always here for you no matter how many times you come back.

Welcome back, silent invisible ninja

And I love that line too.

hi SB, nice to see your name here
i have heard that happiness is like a jellyfish, if you try to grab it slips between your fingers
you can only let it follow you, you can't 'catch' it
kind of like trying to see the back of your head, it's there but if you turn your head you won't see it
if you do the good stuff it'll rain down on you

and i like the distraction/destruction line too

Hi SB,

About all this unhappiness. I have found, in my own experience, that a big part of my unhappiness comes because I have gotten into the habit of focusing on the problems and things that are going wrong. My attention, left on its own, drifts towards fears of the future or resentments from the past. Along the road to recovery, at the very least I've become aware of this and, at times, I am even able to shift my focus--to appreciate the moment and to focus on the good parts of life. I've found that to be helpful. To a certain extent, my unhappiness is of my own making.

Good to see you're still around.

If you keep popping in here every couple of months, that actually is, in a sense, regularity here.

--Elyah

Shhh...the ninja is back.

Hm. It seems that when I talk about writing regularly, it doesn't happen. SO I 'll just say...I needed to write. To at least do something.

Sb
We never offically met
Hope you're doing ok

Your lines about happiness (and hosafah from ZS) might save me for tonight

Hey SB, welcome back!

Hi SB,
It’s good to meet again. It’s been nearly three years since we last met. Back then I was “Ovadia” and you were a real hero for me. And guess what, you are still a hero. I think that it takes real superhuman willpower and strength to be able to achieve what you did.
I hope that you to find the peace and calm that comes with recovery.
May G-d be with you.
Chesky

Hey Chesky! Howya doin, old pal?!

Good to be back Dov. Thanks

GYE online reunion!

--Elyah