How I reached 90 days
I had been falling at least three times a week, so it was surely a struggle. I took the 90 days in steps, committing to what I thought I could manage - 10 days at a time. Clicking "still clean" gave me a small feeling of control that I relished, so regularly updating my chart helped me stay motivated.
Pinpointing what made me feel weak, and what my fears were in terms of falling, and sharing them on the forum gave me transparency and helped keep my journey real.
It was these 90 days that helped me let go of my need to act out; I hope I can do another 90.