Looking back at the times that I've fallen (or felt a very strong pull towards falling), I had always been in a very uneasy state of mind. Maybe I was restless, or irritable, or discontent. Maybe I was feeling tired, stressed out, lonely, angry, or anxious. Or maybe it wa...

Something I've noticed lately of myself, maybe you're the same...When my mind is trying to convince me to act out, white will seem like black, up will seem like down, etc. I have found that I am powerless against this addiction. It doesn't matter how strong any kabbalah I...

When I started posting on GYE and then shortly afterwards joined SA, I desperately wanted to stop masturbating and to stop looking at pornography. I knew that sexual lust was a problem, but I was not especially concerned with it as a problem in its own right. If I could j...

The program doesn't tell us how to stop - we had done that a thousand and one times - it shows us how to keep from starting again. We had it backwards; before, we always wanted the therapist, spouse, or God to do the stopping for us - to fix us. Now, we stop; and then, in...

If I could not talk openly with somebody about all the goofy and gross ideas that pop into my head, I'd certainly eventually act them out! "We are only as sick as our secrets", they so wisely say.But thinking about how the addiction works and making a study of it, is an e...

(Some of the concepts below will only be understood by those who are working the 12-Steps and/or were on Duvid Chaim's calls.) Dear Struggler, First of all, you must congratulate yourself. Think about it. You actually experienced a slip, but by posting about it on the f...

I went on a class trip recently and acted like a second grader! It was awesome! Ahhh, the innocence of childhood. Duvid Chaim says that so much of our "restlessness" is because we forget about enjoying the little things in life and just get caught up in the adult world. E...

I'm writing from the Central Bus Station here on my trip to Israel. As "all y'all" know I often recommend that we think of ourselves as "an ant on a log floating down the river" (who can't control the log in anyway). Well here in this bus station I feel like "an ant in an...

I joined Duvid Chaim's 12-Step Phone group (which is starting a new cycle in February, IY"H) because he GUARANTEED me freedom from lust (remember - not "CONTROL of the addiction", but FREEDOM) if I run the course & do it right. I trusted him, especially because he kne...

On Duvid Chaim's phone group we defined the difference between being "outwardly religious" and being real spiritual people. A "religious" person is one who believes there is a hell. A spiritual person has BEEN to hell. And that's step 1: Hitting bottom. And as a result ...